Vampire or Monster?

Humanity Switch

Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie,and Emmett are all lying on the ground. I rush over to Carlisle first and help him up, he then goes to Esme and I go to Alice. 

"Alice, I am so sorry. Are you alright?" I ask.

"I'm fine Bella. Are you alright though? Why were you screaming?" Alice asked.

"It was Vlad, he was inside my head, he was talking to me. I had to put my shield up to block him out. I am so sorry." I look down and run to the house with my shield up so no one can talk to me or come near me. 

I reach the house first and run up to my room. I lie down on my bed wishing I could just fall asleep. There are so many things that I miss about being human. Eating real food, sleeping, not wanting to feed on every person I walk past. I try and remember the last time I had a real meal, or had a good night's sleep or even just spend time with my mum and dad. I haven't seen my dad for 2 months. People have told him that I moved back to my mum but I doubt he believed them. 

"Hey." I turn around and find Edward there. "The others have gone hunting, do you want to talk?" Edward asks.

"What about?" I ask, pretending like nothing just happened. 

"About what happened out there. About Vlad. What aren't you telling me?" Edward asked.

"I've told you everything." I sit up getting angry. I storm out of the room and into the forest. I feel like I'm on fire. What is going on with me? I spot some people walking by. My mouth waters as I hear their hearts pumping and the warmth of their blood in their veins. I run towards them and I'm about to kill them when Edward knocks me over. 

"Bella! Calm down." Edward says.

"Get. Off. Me!" I say through grinding teeth.

"Bella! Stop, this isn't you." Edward says. He's right, this isn't me. What did Vlad do to me? I stop resisting Edward and lie flat on the ground. 

"I'm sorry Edward. I don't know what came over me." I say to Edward. 

"We need to go see Carlisle. Now." Edward says to me. He takes me by the hand and we start running towards the house again. "Carlisle!" Edward yells.

"In here." Carlisle replies. We head towards his office and I see Carlisle sitting in his chair doing work. "What's wrong Edward?" Carlisle asked.

"It's Bella, she's been acting differently ever since Vlad got in her head." Edward says to Carlisle. 

"Lets go round the back and do a scan." I head around the back and lie back on the bed. Carlisle starts the scan and within 10 minutes, I'm outside and waiting for Carlisle. 

"What's wrong Carlisle?" I ask. 

"Bella, it seems as though when Vlad got into your head, he messed with your humanity part of yourself and he is trying to make you go full Vampire. He wants you to break." Carlisle says. I sit in silence. 

"What can I do to make it stop?" I ask.

"You just need to try and control yourself now, think of a memory that makes you feel human or something that makes you calm. Until you have your thirst under control, you won't be able to go home or school."  Carlisle finishes. 

"WHAT! Carlisle, my dad's already worried sick about me and I've already missed out on 2 months of school. You can't keep me here." I start to get angry and my eyes go red. 

"Bella! Calm down. Your eyes are going red." Edward grabs my arm and I start to calm down. My eyes go back to gold and my anger disappears. "If you were to go back to school, what would happen if someone knocked you, you would turn and you would kill them." Carlisle said. I don't want to hurt anybody. But I want to see my dad. He's probably worried about me. Maybe I should call him, but then he'll have questions that I won't be able to answer. 

"What about my dad Carlisle?" I say to Carlisle. 

"I will talk to him. Don't worry Bella. Just try to control your anger and when you do, that's when you can go back to school and see your dad again." I walk out of the room even though Carlisle was still talking. I feel my eyes go red. Why do I have to listen to him? He's not my father. I don't have to listen to anyone.