It was all bits and pieces of images flashing in my mind.
I entered wearing an olive green lace dress and next thing I knew I was wearing nothing.
It was all bits and pieces of images flashing in my mind.
I was soaked with bad decisions and your con...
The bus moves too fast as it passes one street to another, stopping by one stop to another. The whole ride I kept my head leaned against the window as I run through the words I wish I could smoothly say in front of him. As the complexity of the situation starts to eat me up again, I clutch my stomach and close my eyes to get rid of it. Instead, I focus on the sound of the bus doors, opening and closing as more passengers get on board, and the screeching of the tires against the uneven asphalt ground.
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After a few anxious moments, the bus stopped at at my destination. I'm here. My feet moved hastily as I drag it one by one on the cold pavement of this city.
As soon as the bus left, I knew there was no turning back. That I'm really doing this. My chest heaves up and down like its dragging an almost empty supply of air from my lungs.
"You can do this Eun Gi. You have to." I whisper to myself as I let my eyes close for a fraction of a second.
I hold on to my coat with a pair of shaking hands and an unsteady breath. For the sake of my child, I allow my feet to take me to the man that could possibly be my hope. To the man that could possibly ease my worries and whisper me words of comfort against the inevitable. For the sake of our child, I will try.
The clouds loom over me as I focus on the bricked ground that passes by my every step. The grumbling of the sky forced my eyes to lift into its direction, letting me know that rain will soon pour down. I thump my feet in a faster pace to get to their building. I bump one shoulder to another as I alternate from walking and running as if I am being chased by my cowardice thoughts of retreat.
"Ya!" A woman yelled at me as I slam against her with so much force that knocked her straight to the ground. People who are walking the same street started throwing me dirty looks. Their eyes moving from my face to the form of the woman I bumped into. I stop and take in the scene. A good citizen would help her and apologize to every single one of them for my recklessness. Instead, my feet move backwards as I slowly turn away from their judging eyes and run once again.
I don't have time to help others, not now. I need to go. I need to go to him. I have to.
Without realizing it, I am standing breathlessly in front of Big Hit Entertainment. The uncertainty in this situation builds up as I near the entrance without hesitation. I am greeted by two guards but I didn't bother greeting them back as I went straight inside. My breath is caught up in my throat as I take in the place that I have always longed to be in. Memories of how I adored BTS rushed down on me like I am being showered. My heart beats faster as I relish the main reason why I'm here. I was once just a simple woman who wanted to see them, listen to them, get to know them and forever support them. But here I am, standing in the lobby of their building searching for Park Jimin. Not for being an idol but for being the father of my child.
I was busy looking at signs to what floor of the building might they be in that I didn't realize that the guards were calling out to me.
"Cheogiyo! You can't be in here." Two guards approach me with stern looks. Their eyes gazing down on me as they take in my horrible sight.
