"Thank you for coming," I said after finally detaching myself from him.
He nodded, smiling and looking down at the floor.
It was around 7:00 PM. I was hungry, but I didn't feel like going out. Or eating, actually. I sighed and used a tissue to blow my nose.
"This is probably the worst time to do this," Jimin said.
"Do what?" I asked, sniffling.
"Listen and don't say anything until I say you can." He said.
I nodded.
"You've said everything you needed to, so now it's my turn. The past 3 weeks were the most depressing weeks of my life. All of us missed you. We were scared that we just lost one of our best friends. But I was scared that I lost the girl that I love. I've only known you for about a month but I know what it feels like to love someone, so please don't try to tell me that what I'm feeling 'isn't real'. Cause I'm pretty sure it is."
I panicked, realising what he was trying to say. I didn't know how to reply.
"You're going through a breakup - I know. You need space and time and that's fine. I can do that. But I just needed to tell you before I lost you for good. Because if there's even a 0.1% chance that you feel the same way I need to know that I didn't miss it."
He sighed and leaned his head back onto the wall and carried on.
"I'm insecure and sensitive and I'm pretty much damaged goods, but I need you. And I'm not gonna lie, if you don't feel the way I do, I'd probably cry my eyes out for the rest of my life. But if you don't, you need to tell me now. Because I don't want to love a girl who doesn't love me back. I can't deal with that. Not now. Not ever."
"You can talk now," he said with his eyes towards the ceiling.
I didn't know what to say.
Do I love him?
Do I not love him? - That's definitely a no.
Can I deal with another relationship right now? - Probably not.
Do I want him in my life? - Yes.
"I don't know how I feel," I whispered. "I'm feeling way too many emotions to tell you how I feel about you in just one word."
I reached over for his hand. Locking my fingers in his, I leaned back and closed my eyes. Think, Rosie think.
"Don't say anything now," he said quietly. "Let me know when you're ready. Let me know when you have an answer that you won't regret."
I sighed.
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you never walk alone | pjm
Fanfiction[COMPLETED] "I'm never falling in love ever again." - After having your heart broken by a previous boyfriend, you promise yourself to never fall in love with anyone ever again. But then Park Jimin comes along. Will you give in, or resist him? - - om...
