you never walk alone | pjm

Chapter / 27

"Welcome!!!" JHope screamed as we entered the door.

Suga walked calmly to the door and invited us in. When we got to the living room, a huge set of mattresses were spread out across the floor - making it look like one huge bed, a bunch of snacks and drinks were set out on the sofa, tons of blankets and pillows covered the mattresses and two speakers were playing music quietly. The light was dimmed and all the boys were sitting or lying down next to each other in a circle while wearing their PJs.

"Come sit!" Tae said, tugging on my arm.

Jimin went to the bathroom to change into his pajamas and I sat down at the end next to Jungkook, leaving a space for Jimin. When he came back out in his blue pajama set, we all slumped down onto the bed.

"Rosie," Jin said. "Tell us something you've never told anyone before."

I raised my eyebrows, hesitating. Thinking about what to say, I lay down and rested my head on Jimin's thigh. He smiled and smoothed my hair with his fingers.

"I was in love with Jungkook when you guys first debuted," I said.

"What?!" Jimin said, laughing. "What about this beautiful face?!"

He pointed at himself and we all burst into laughter. I cupped his face in my hands and gave him a quick kiss before carrying on.

"I don't know why," I said.

"What do you mean you don't know why?! Everyone loves me," Jungkook said in a joking way.

We all started laughing again.

"He was a tiny boy and I don't know," I chuckled. "I just thought he was cute... Even though he's the same age as me."

Everyone nodded and praised Jungkook for turning into a 'manly' boy. Jimin reached over me and gave Kookie a playful slap on the shoulder. Slowly, we started to talk about more serious things; personal insecurities, worries for the group, worries for the company, etc.

After about an hour, everyone fell asleep. The night light was turned on and almost everything fell dark. Jungkook and Tae cuddled as they slept, Namjoon and Suga's legs were all over each other while they tried to find a comfy position to sleep in and Jin was sleeping peacefully by himself at the end of the huge mattress-bed by the kitchen entrance.

Smiling, Jimin wrapped his arms around my waist and I hugged his legs with mine. Burying my face into his chest, we fell asleep.

-

Suddenly, I woke up. There was no sound or bright lights. Everything was as it was before I went to sleep. I looked at the clock on the wall; 3:04 AM. Trying to get back to sleep I flipped over and faced the other way. But by the window, there was a silhouette of a member. He was looking out the window, so I couldn't tell who it was.

Silently, I slid out of Jimin's arms and tip-toed to where the silhouette was sitting. When I sat across from, leaning on window, I could see that it was Jungkook.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" I whispered as he looked at me.

"Couldn't sleep," he replied, looking back outside.

"Are you okay?" I asked, slightly concerned.

No reply.

After a few seconds, Jungkook turned himself towards me and leaned his head sideways on the big glass window.

"I was just thinking," he said slowly in a quiet voice.

"About what?"

"Why I can't express myself as well as other members."

"What do you mean? You're amazing on stage. The facial expressions and--"

"Not that," he sighed. "Just in general. If I don't like something, if I love something. Whichever and whatever it is... I can never say it out loud properly."

"I'm listening," I said, smiling. "Tell me."