I Don't Know Man (On Hold)

It Almost Worked...

Its Monday now. I got up and did my usual morning routine. My brother knocked on my door and came in. I was sitting on the edge of my bed putting on my shoes. "You ready for school?" He asked. I just nodded. I was too tired to care at the moment. I grabbed my board and walked behind Cole as we left the house. Once we got to school the guys were all in front of the doors as usual. I ran up to Colin and threw my arms around him. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head. The guys talked until the bell rang, then we went inside and to our lockers.

The first couple of hours was boring. Once the bell rang for lunch I decided to go to my locker first. when I opened it a folded piece of paper fell to my feet. I raised an eyebrow and thought maybe it was Andy trying to make my day again. I shoved my stuff in my locker and picked it up. I shut my locker and turned leaning against it. I unfolded it and read: Dear Cameron,

I'm sorry to say this on paper but I just couldn't do it in person. I just don't have feelings for you anymore. I'm breaking up with you and I don't want to talk about it after you read this I just want to be left alone so don't try to ask me anything, please. I wouldn't say anything to the guys just let them find out on their own. Sorry again.

-Colin

I had tears rushing down my face before I even finished it. I gasped for air and collapsed to the floor balling. Why would he break up with me when just Saturday he said he loved me? I don't know what I did. I was trying so hard not to make any noise but I just couldn't hold it in. I let out a crying scream and hit my hand against the tile floor. I was so upset I thought my heart just shattered into a million pieces. I let out another scream but this time into my hands. I could heard feet running down the hallway. "Oh my god. Cameron whats wrong." I could tell by the voice it was Kian. I couldn't talk without it being a cry of pain. I lifted up the note and he took it. I returned my hand to my face as he read it. I hear more running feet and felt someone put a hand on my back. "Kian, whats wrong with her?" It was Andy. "Hold on. This doesn't make sense. Stay here I'll be right back." Kian said running down the hall. Andy pulled me into his arms putting me in a sitting position. My eyes burned but I couldn't stop crying. Andy rocked me back and forth rubbing my back and kissing the top of my head.

*Kian's Pov*

I reached the cafeteria and ran over to Colin. "Dude, what the fuck is this?" I said angrily shoving the letter into his hands. "Well, I don't know. What is it?" He said giving me a weird look and unfolding it. I watched his eyes move along the paper as he read. His jaw dropped and his face turnes red. "Jessie." He said angrily and ripped it in half, throwing it on the floor and running down the hall. I followed after him. Once we reached Andy and Cameron he collapses to his knees and crawled over to them. "Cameron, I did not write that letter." He said taking her hands. She pulled away and wrapped her arms around Andy hiding her face as she started balling again. I could see tears start to run down Colin's face. Wow, I've never seen him cry before. "Cameron, I swear! It was Jessie. It wasn't even in her hand writting. Baby, I would never leave you. You've got to believe me. Please." He said scooting closer to her and taking her hands away from Andy. She looked at him devastated. "I believe it." I said. "It was her hand writting." She looked at me and I nodded. I pulled the note out of my pocket, because I picked it up, and put the two halves together. I looked at the bottom and saw eraser marks and a faint J next the where it says Colin. "You can even see where she started writing her name and erasted it. I walked over and showed it to her.

*Cameron's Pov*

I looked back at Colin and he had tears streaming down his face. I reached up and whipped them away with him still holding my wrists. He put my hands on his shoulders and I pulled myself off of Andy and onto Colin. I was still crying, and so was Colin. I think it was because we almost lost each other. "I thought I lost you." I said quietly. "I thought I lost you too." He replied you could hear that he was crying in his voice. He kisses the side of my head 4 times and rocked me back and forth. "Thank god. I thought I was gonna start crying too." Kian said. "I want you guys to be together. I love that your together. Oddly." He added. My brother came running around the corner wondering what the hell was going on. "Nothing." Was all I said.

Once Colin and I stopped crying we ditched the rest of school and went to my house. We plopped down on the couch and he just held me. He wouldn't let me go and I didn't want him to. I almost wanted to cry again just knowing that Jessie's stupid plan actually almost worked. She could try doing alot of things. Someday it may work and the thought of that scared me. I can't lose Colin. I love him. I need him. Hes my everything. I shifted my weight and we laid down on the couch facing each other. We stared at each other for awhile. "I love you." he said brushing my bangs behind my ear. "I love you too." I replied. He kissed me. I kissed back pushing my body closer to his until we were completely touching with no space between us. We pulled away and I buried my face in his chest and eventually fell asleep.

*Colin's pov*

Hours went by and Cameron was still sleeping. Cole didn't come here after school, so I'm assuming he went to the skate park. Just then the front door opens and its, I think, her mom. I've never met her mom because shes always gone.
    She stares at us for a minute then says "You must be, Colin?" In a whisper. "Yeah." I whispered back. She walked in and sat on the coffee table facing us. "Did she have a bad day again?" She asked petting the back of Cameron's head. "Very bad." I replied resting my chin on her head. This was really awkward. "What happened?" I sighed quietly. "It was bad for both of us. Has she told you about Jesse?" She nodded with a sigh. "She apparently wrote a note to Cameron saying that I was breaking up with her and that I didn't want to ever talk to her or see her again, and signed my name on it. I found Cameron balling her eyes out on the floor in front of her locker. Andy was there wondering what was going on but trying to calm her down. When I read the note I started freaking out. I didn't know what to do. I started crying myself. It took me a bit to convince her that I didn't actually write it. I thought I lost her." I said not realizing that I was spilling my guts to her mother. She had a sympathetic look on her face. "I'm glad she has you, and the guys. You're the only people who have actually cared about her besides me and her brother. At her last school she used to come home everyday balling her eyes out. They actually beat her. I don't understand how the teachers never find out. She started cutting herself. She almost died from it once. She hasn't cut herself since we moved, even with Jesse doing this stuff." She said. I felt awful. "I did that. I caught her doing it after school the first day I met her and I told her to stop and that she was too beautiful to do that. I can't stand the thought of anyone hurting her, or even her hurting herself." She nodded. "Will you wake her up for me, please I wanna talk to her." She asked. I nodded and looked down at Cameron. I put a hand on her cheek and said "Baby, your moms here." once she woke up. She looked at me and smiled and sat up to her mom. "Hey, baby girl." Her mom said putting her hand on her cheek. "Hi, mom." Cameron replied. "How you feeling?"

"Fine. I'm just tired. Where's Cole?"

"Not sure. Probably at the skatepark. He texted me earlier and said he was worried about you. You should probably go find him." Cameron nodded and stood up. Her mom smiled and walked away. I got up and took Cameron's hand. We left the house and went toward the skate park. "So you met my mom. What did you talk about." She asked walking behind me and jumping onto my back for a piggy back ride. "I told her what happened. And she told me what happened at your old school." I answered. She was quiet for a moment. "Yeah." Was all she said. she laid her head down on my back.

A few minutes went by until we finally got to the skatepark, and when we did I immediately stopped "Whats the matter?" Cameron asked lifting her head. She gasped and jumped off of me. Cole and Envy were standing in the middle of the skatepark making out. I could tell that she was more angry than anything. "HEY COLE, HOWS YOUR DAY GOING?" She yelled causing him to pull away from Envy and look at us. He gasped and started to walk toward us. I took Cameron's hand and pulled her away. "Okay, we should leave now. We'll go to the mall." I said as I pulled her away from the sound of Cole yelling her name.