Sometimes emotions get the best of you.
Make you do things in the heat or the moment.
Sometimes those emotions can result in you getting hurt, physically or emotionally.
But you know what hurts worse?
I put in so much effort to get you to open up to me. Just so I can learn about you.
But maybe you're doing me a favor, saving me from the eventual heartbreak that will come from this.
Great philosophers believed that most people hear words but don't listen to the words.
When we talked, did you ever hear the wavering in my voice cause I was nervous that I would say something wrong.
Did you hear my heart beating out of my chest, because every time I'm near you my body just goes out of whack.
It hurts so much more when you don't realize that you're hurting me.
I would prefer being best near my to death anyday.
At least i have hope of things getting better if I'm in physical pain.
But you don't care.
You never have.
But I don't blame you.
It's what I deserve.
YOU ARE READING
Late Night Thoughts
General FictionA collection of essays I write at 2 am. Updated whenever I have a depressive episode