Lustful Temptations (BoyxBoy)

Chapter Nine ~ Gaelan

Lustful Temptations (Chapter Nine):

            I said them, the words that would separate me from Baithazar. It was my decision to end whatever he and I had between us. He didn’t want me. He didn’t want anything to do with who I was or what I was willing to give him. I wasn’t what he wanted. What he wanted was a woman that would mate with him, a woman who would cook and clean, a woman who would be the perfect housewife, a woman who was the perfect mate, and a woman who would bear him children.

            That was the one thing that killed me the most…that I couldn’t bear children for him. I couldn’t provide him with an offspring that he could cherish forever. I couldn’t make him a father. I couldn’t make him be that person who would be the perfect father. He is the type of person who is meant to be the perfect father figure, with his large stature and perfect caring demeanor.

            I closed my eyes as I continued the chat to eliminate the bond I have with Baithazar, but as soon as I opened my mouth he came out in wolf form. He roared his pain and I understood. He soon spotted me and threw his full weight at my body. When he forced me to the floor with his heavy wolf body on mine he growled at me. He changed back into a strong virile human male and growled at me again, “What are you doing?! What are you trying to do!”

            I whimper sprawled out of my mouth. “Setting you free” I yelled.

            “Why?”

            “Because you don’t want me, because I’m not what you want. You want a woman who can love you and give you children. You want a woman…not me. You could never love me, your exact words right?” I looked away because of my shame and I felt a tear fall as I continued the chant in my head, knowing that it would work regardless of whether I was saying it out loud or if I was saying it in my head.

            “Please don’t say that.” I looked up at his sudden change of tone. It went from harsh and gruff with pain to calm caring. When I looked in his eyes I noticed that they had changed. “I’ve spent years loving you and your leopard, my mate. You are both my mates. I love you. I love you. Please do not do this. I love you. Please do not kill yourself. I need you. Please.” I knew then that his wolf had taken over.

            He leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. I closed my eyes and felt the love that flowed from his soul to mine and my leopard’s. He pecked my lips with kisses many more times, but soon moved to my neck, the were-sign of affection. I was overcome by the love and care that he was showing me that I hadn’t realized that he had an ulterior motive.

            I felt the cage I had pushed my leopard into being unlocked and she roared out, screaming her displeasure with me and I knew, she’s angry with me. I pulled away and willingly left my body as an open vessel free for use. I ran away from here and allowed my leopard to use my body. At least this way Baithazar could have a female…