Lustful Temptations (BoyxBoy)

Chapter Six ~ Baithazar

Lustful Temptations (Chapter Six):

            As soon as I realized what had happened it was too late. I had decided, while I was eating, that I would give him a change, but I end up hurting him. Ten were-leopards came into the room as soon as Gaelan fled.

            “What happened?” They guy, Rick (I think), said.

            “I accidentally broke Gaelan’s hand. I fell asleep after I finished eating. When his hand came at me I thought that he was attacking me. I didn’t know it was him. I’m not used to being here yet.” I pleaded for them to understand.

            “I believe you.” The nervous leopard from before came forward. Rick looked at him wearily and said, “Are you sure? You knew the whole Pard trusts your judgment, so do not feel like I am unsure of you. Is he telling the truth? Was he confused?”

            “Yes. He didn’t know.” The nervous leopard stepped forward and touched my forehead. He closed his eyes and stood still, breathing evenly. He soon opened his eyes and stepped back. “He is so confused about many things, where he is, who he can trust, what protocol to follow in different situations, and why his mate is male. So confused.” The little leopard seemed to blend back into the other leopards and I was soon face-to-face with Rick.

            He was obviously a dominant leopard as his demeanor was neutral, observing, as if trying to figure out a secret that had been locked away for thousands of years. The way his assessing eyes watched my form and stature was unnerving, but tolerable. The way his tall figure gracefully moved as he circled around me, inspecting everything, was something that made me want to know what was going through his mind. I didn’t have to wait as he spoke his mind.

            “You want to know something? Your mate, he said he wants me to be his mate instead of you. Do you think he fantasizes about me and my body?” Something within me clicked and my anger started to rise. He continued, “He said that he fantasizes about how sexy I look without any clothes on. I wonder if he’s dreamt about making love to me. I wonder how he pictures me with my penis inside him. Does he get hot thinking about me? Would he mind if I didn’t prepare him and just rammed in?” I snapped. Something inside me made me react to his words.

            I turned and grabbed his shirt slammed him against the wall behind him. “Mine.” My wolf and I growled. “He’s ours. He belongs to us!” My wolf and I were snarling in this prick’s face.

            “Oh, really? Prove it. Are you two bonded? Can you sense where he is? Can you feel what he’s feeling? Could you find him if you wanted, hmm?”

            “I—I” I lost my words. I know that those abilities are how mates feel content with themselves, knowing that their other half is there supporting them. I couldn’t do any of that. I can’t sense where he is, or feel if he’s in pain from me crushing his fingers, or feel if his feelings were hurt by my insensitivity, or be able to find him. I don’t know any of that stuff.

            I don’t even know why I’m reacting like this. I’m straight. Why would I give that pathetic loser a chance with me when I’m not attracted to him? He‘s nothing but a homo who has a crush on me. What the hell was I thinking when I planned to give him a chance or when I was reacting to Rick’s words?

            My wolf invaded my thoughts, yet again. ‘He is mate. Claim him. Make him ours. He is ours. Do not deny that. Do not deny us or him. Do not deny me my mate, the leopard. She is beautiful, and I do not want to wait another lifetime to find her.’ He growled his feelings at me.

            “Why should I? Why should I chase after some homo? He’s nothing!” I shouted back at my wolf.

            ‘He is mate! He is not nothing! He is mate! He is soul mate! He is love! He is understanding! He is caring! He is nurturer! He is mate!’ My wolf growled back at me. ‘He is not something to let go of! He is mate! Claim him! Keep him safe!” I growled at my wolf and returned to my real life.

            I let go of Rick and slumped into a chair and put my head in my hands and let out a sigh. What do I do? Do I allow myself to be matted to some gay boy? Do I resist him and disregard everything my wolf said? Do I make sure that the boy becomes mine? Do I make sure he’s let go? What do I do?

            “Whatever you think is right.” Rick said as though he could hear my thoughts.