Her Midnight Thoughts

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Thoughts For Being Single

Sometimes, I get tired answering questions why am I still single. Dahil maski ako ay hindi ko rin alam ang sagot sa katanungang iyan. May part sa akin na ayoko pa. May part sa akin na gusto ko na. May part sa akin na studies muna. May part sa akin na takot pang sumubok. Pero ang pinakagusto kong isagot sa tanong na iyon ay, no one dared to try.

Why?

Maybe, di nila matagalan ang isang tulad ko na silent type. I will surely bore them to death. Maybe, because I'm too pabebe. O baka, di talaga ako nabiyayaan ng magandang mukha. Di na maganda mukha, di pa maganda katawan. Parang pinagkait na sa akin ang lahat. Baka sa past life ko, nasa akin ang lahat kaya hiniling ko na sana sa lifetime na ito, ipagkait naman sa akin lahat. Grabe? Pwede magtira naman kahit onti?

But, some guys tried but didn't last. Pinakamatagal na atang sumubok ay 3 days. After that, I never heard of him. Makikita ko na lang bigla after few days sa newsfeed ko, naka in a relationship na sa mas pretty sa akin. Napapaisip na lang ako, hindi ba ako kagusto gusto? It's like they're saying I'm not worth the wait. I'm not worth the trouble. They're not worth my time then. Kala mo naman kegw-gwapo. If I know, they don't have the balls. Tss.

I've tried going out on a date with some guys but wala pa ring nangyayari. Pare-pareho sila. They flirt with me on facebook because they think I'm pretty on my DP, ask me out at after ng date na iyon, we never talked again. I'm starting to think that no one will ever like me.

My friends tried to help me. I appreciate their efforts and concern. They just want me to be happy as them with their partners. But I cannot simply change myself into someone I am not. I cannot be as cool as them around boys. I still feel awkward. I cannot be as cool as them. I'm a hopeless case. I tried pero hindi nangyayari ang gusto kong resulta.

Oo, choosy ako. Mataas ang standards ko. I wanted a real life fictional character as my boyfriend. I don't want to settle for less. 

Pero kapag dumating ang taong nakalaan para sa akin, I may be not the perfect girl but I can be the girl a guy could've ever have.

Dear Future Boyfriend,

Hi! I just want you to know that I am patiently waiting for you to come. I'm always wondering what you look like. Are you tall? Are you fair? Chinito ka ba? Brown eyes ka ba? Pero kung ano man ang physical appearance mo, depende pa rin iyon sa personality mo. I have a soft heart for guys who knows how to take good care of me. :)

Magtatagal ka ba sa buhay ko o katulad ka rin ng iba na mapapadaan lang?

I wish to meet you soon.

Love,

Me ♡

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