UNRAVELED // YOONMIN

DATE

Today wasn't any different from any other boring day,

Except that it was,

Not because I was excited about my date with Jin,

But that misfortune seemed to greet me at every corner,

As my long lost friend,

That I didn't want to see.

Making my existence that much more unbearable,

It was like my entire day was going in slow motion,

Inching forward,

On a road that appeared to never end,

Causing my patience to wear thin,

Because even though there was so much to do,

Everything felt boring,

And my desire for a distraction,

Was insatiable.

Even getting ready,

Felt monotonous,

And the excitement that had been coursing through my body the night before,

Fizzled out.

The strange sense that things were out of place,

Made a special visit,

Just as it had last night.

It was like everything was surreal,

Like I wasn't really there,

That I was just a spectator,

And this feeling,

Made me feel uneasy,

To the point that my legs would shake when I sat down,

Or my fingers would absentmindedly tap on the table,

When Jin arrived,

My unsettlement only grew,

He was so happy,

His smile radiated warmth,

He was warm,

And I felt cold.

When he brought me to the amusement park,

I acted like I was happy,

Like this was the date of my dreams,

And that nothing could quite outdo the amusement park,

A lie,

But a necessary one,

He was pleased,

When he asked me to go all the scary rides,

My body froze,

But I agreed,

Because finally that weird feeling had fled,

And my body was rushing with warmth,

And I didn't want to seem like I was scared of everything,

His smile transformed into something so radiant,

My heart almost burst.

On the rides I would grasp his hand in mine,

He would always squeeze my hand in reassurance,

And I felt alive again,

That is,

Until jin started getting more excited with each step,

His breathing erratic,

And his eyes wide with anticipation.

He took me to the entrance of a haunted house,

My breath stopped,

But I went ahead,

Walking past the employees,

Steeling my heart,

Because more than anything,

I hated scary things,

Little did I know that I would become the thing of my nightmares.

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L A ME I know,
But lately I've been feeling sad and uninspired instead of being sad and inspired,
But I promise it will get better