UNRAVELED // YOONMIN

PLEASE

"Please don't say that,"

"Look I know this is my fault, they used you to get to me,

and if I wasn't selfish then I would tell you that you'll never see me again,

that I'll leave you alone,

but I can't do that,

Jimin,

Please,

I'm begging you don't do this,"

And those honey sweet words would have worked

If I had been the me at the start of the school year,

But I wasn't,

And it felt like my heart was made of stone,

And no amount of warmth could melt it down,

Into a living,

Beating,

Thing.

"I never want to talk to you again."

Plain. Simple.

Easy to understand,

But he wasn't getting it.

He kept trying to grab my hand,

Touch me somewhere.

I decided I wasn't going to let that fly,

So I ripped my hand from his,

"I hate you, what don't you get about that,

I almost died because of you,

And if I had,

I would have haunted you in your jail cell,

Where you would hopefully rot and die.

Actually, you know what,

I can easily land you in there,

All I have to do is tell the police that you killed those four men,

And then all my problems would be solved.

You create nothing but chaos jin,

And I wish I had never met you."

His entire body went slack as he stood there and gaped,

He didn't expect it,

And neither had I.

This was the beginning of the end.

For months on end jin would come to me,

Apologize,

Beg me,

"PLEASE"

He probably said that about a thousand times,

But each word bounced right back to him,

Raining down on his determination.

And slowly he realized that he could never have me.

I iced him out.

The walls getting taller each day.

And eventually,

He stopped trying.

He reverted back to who he was before me,

Every once in a while he would catch my eye,

But I always looked away before he could approach me,

And the girl who had been in the haunted house watched everything,

With a degree of intent that made me uneasy.

It was almost like she was taking notes,

Biding her time,

Because if jin was a snake,

She was a hawk,

Waiting to swoop in when her prey was weak.

And in the most annoying way,

Everything was connected,

I just didn't know how, yet.

All I did know was that finally,

Jin had stopped trying to even capture my attention,

And I don't know what scared me more,

The idea that he didn't care about me anymore,

Or the possibility that he would do what he did to me with someone else.

A naive part of me wanted to think that would never happen,

But then I saw him talking to that kid that had held me,

Back when my world had crashed down around me,

And my heart and all the ice that had encrusted itself inside,

Fractured.

I certainly felt like a shell of myself,

Just like that man at the diner had predicted,

But now that I know the full scale of what was about to happen,

if I was a shell then,

I'm a shell of a shell now.

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AN

Hi it's time for my yearly update haha,

No but in all seriousness I'm really going to try and finish this soon so stay tuned because it's about to go down