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thomas

     i kissed him. i actually kissed him. i was scared. oh my god what have i done. fuck.

    he tried pulling away but i grabbed his thigh and pulled him closer. my eyes were shut so i couldn't see his face. i'm not gonna lie, Alex was a good kisser. he didn't exactly kiss back, but he stopped squirming and pushing away. and then he did kiss back. i stiffened a bit but felt how he was melting into the kiss. why? did he know about Martha?

   i finally pulled away to a disgusted Martha & a flustered Hamilton. he looks kinda mad the kiss is over. i almost grinned.

"Wow Thomas. Didn't know you could have your standards that low," she said with a frown, which then turned into a grin when she saw Alex's face get red from anger. Martha strutted off to wherever she was going. i gulped.

  "What. The. Hell!!?" Alex said looking at me angerly, with just a glint of lust in his eyes. "Why'd you kiss back?!" I asked getting angry too. "IT WAS A GOOD DAMN KISS!" he practically screamed of anger. i looked at him grinning smugly. he enjoyed our kiss. 

 alexander

   oh shit. i said that aloud. oh no. fu---

   "Huh?" he said looking at me with a stupid grin. caressing my cheek he pecked my forehead and picked up his pizza, heading for his friends. what just happened?

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after picking up my pizza, i went back to my friends. they all looked at me, confused why i was so red. "What happened?" Eliza asked concern tinted in her voice. setting the pizza down i shook my head saying a quick, "nothing!" i sat down opening up the pizza box. "Ok then..." Angie said, taking a pizza slice, "It's your turn Pegs."

Peggy got up, grabbing her yellow bowling bowl. she made a strike. of course she did. we all cheered. Peggy was in her college's bowling team. Peggy was the only one of my friends still in college. Eliza, John, and Laf had just graduated. while Peggy was now just a junior in the amazing King's College. 

i took a quick glance at the score board and realized i was last. Angie noticed this and put an evil grin on her face. she laughed and took her turn. she was my under-study, and had made me loose! goddamnit, this day had been....shitty.

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but you know we stay litty!

ok, I'll leave. jk so i hope you enjoyed, i was bored and wanted to write. ik i have been busy, but school exists so ._. also i realized I AM ANGElCA.

and i will tell yall why: so I and my friend (aka Peggy) met this guy and i totally fell for him. he looks like Daveed Diggs and isn't that much older than me. I'm shy though so i did not talk to him. anyways i told my other friend (Eliza) about him, she quickly also felt helpless around him. but we didn't really think much of it. also he a football player xD and we do not know his name so we call him Laf, cause he looks like Daveed and had a man bun.

he Hawaiian tho

anyways, so Peggy and I have like all the same classes (except one: our quarter class) and so we were in English (while Eliza was in Science) and we had to write a poem. we were goofing off and this was our little dinky extra one:

I'm Lafayette,

I am a large baguette,

I am Lin Manuel-Miranda,

I am a bandana,

I am Eliza Schuyler,

I have a pet tiger

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ok, so we wrote that on a sticky note, anyway we showed it to "Eliza" and she being her goofy self, put it on her forehead. so Peggy and I went to the 'snack shack' cause i wanted lemonade, and Peggy wanted Bosco sticks. shortly after "Laf" came to the line with 2 of his friends, he didn't get anything though rip xD

so Eliza seeing he was there, ran up to the snack shack (this is at lunch btw) and went right behind him in line. Peggy and I bought our snacks and headed for our lunch table again, not paying much attention to Eliza. so when we sit down, Eliza's coming back grinning. apparently "Laf" knew what Hamilton was cause he read the poem-thingy, and fist-bumped her.

she was bragging about it all lunch and how they were gonna be freakin best buds and i literally was just smiling, acting fuckin happy when i was not. i was the one that found out he even existed, and i was the one who wrote the poem. Peggy literally just thought it was cool and awesome he knew what Hamilton even was. like: i will never be satisfied

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 this might not seem like a big deal, but i really liked him and i just wish that could have been me, but not everything goes your way, right? well bye <3 also HAM LIKED THE KISS AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH