Sunday, December 25th
Sang thinks she's doing ok with being away from her guys, but I know better. Yes I know this journal is for my thoughts and feelings. Well that's what I'm doing. I hate seeing Sang like this. See, my thoughts. Anyway, I know how much she cared about them. She still won't tell me why I caught her packing in the middle of the night instead of celebrating with the guys who should be on her team. I guess it's payback for when I didn't tell her my reason for spazzing out. I told her eventually, I guess I just have to hope that she'll do the same.
We just finished giving Phil our gifts for the guys since Sang refuses to see them. And in sister solidarity, I've chosen not to see mine either, although that doesn't mean I won't speak to them. The other day Lake and I were discussing Sang's issue while she was working herself to the bone, yet again. We decided that I should probably add a little something extra to the Christmas gifts, to let them know how she's doing. I wrote a little letter, that I had Lake look over since I'm not always good with words, and included one of the few pictures we managed to get her to take during one of our missions. Phil's been doing a good job of keeping us busy. We're only in Charleston until tomorrow, just long enough for him to pick up our gifts and to have us relax for a little bit for the holiday.
None of us have had a good Christmas in quite some years, so when Sang gets back upstairs, we're going to exchange gifts and just hang out. Maybe have a few drinks, and just stay in the safe house. Hopefully Sang will open up about her repressed feelings.
As for my repressed feelings, well, they're no longer repressed. I may have wrote my own little letter to my guys, letting them know how to contact me if that was something they'd want to do. I have to admit that being without them, after having them to myself, has been harder than I thought it would be. They were there for me, they cared for me, and I grew to love them. Not that it was hard to do...they're great guys. I really hope that me leaving didn't ruin what we had, but if it did, I'd be happy just to have them as friends...just to have them in my life, even if they were with someone else. No, that's a lie. I'd rip the bitches hair out. But they don't need to know that.
Well, I guess that's it. Now it's just a waiting game to see if they still want anything to do with me. Guess we'll find out soon enough. Bye for now.
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A Cold Winter: A College Life Story (Complete)
Fanfiction**Sequel to College Life. If you have not read College Life, I suggest you do so before reading this** With the Fall semester over, and Sang and Kayli off on their own team, with new their new friend Lake, how will out boys fair? Take a look inside...
