Friday, January 6th
We go back to school next week...I'm both excited, and nervous beyond belief, and all for the same reason. The boys. I haven't seen or spoken to them since I left, no matter how many times Phil has told me that I should reach out to them, or how much they've asked about me. I just can't do it.
I was so tempted to reach out to them for Christmas... I settled on sending them gifts. I didn't leave a return address, mainly because I don't have one. After Kayli, Lake, and I went through our week of training, we started moving around for different missions. I've managed to see more places in the last few weeks than I did my entire life.
We start a new mission today that will extend into the school year. I guess that's a good thing. As much as I liked visiting new places, it'll be nice to stay in one place for a while. Especially since I'll be able to see the boys. The only downside is that I won't be able to tell them about my mission since we aren't on the same team.
Everyday I wonder if I made the right decision in not being on their team, but that was the only option that made sense to me. They were fighting! They were a team way before I came along...I couldn't come between them. No matter how much I miss them.
The nightmares have come back with a vengeance. Kayli and Lake do what they can, but even they are no match for my horrible psyche. North is the only person who made them go away. I still don't understand how. The only guaranteed way to not have one, is if I'm too exhausted to deam. Working out helps. I've managed to gain more muscle in my arms and legs, and my abs are more defined than they used to be. I like to think that Nathan would be proud. I often think about our sparring sessions from last year. There weren't many, but he taught be the basics of self defense. I've started practicing martial arts, it helps me feel closer to them. God, how I miss them. If only...no, I can't think like that. No matter how much it hurts, I couldn't come between them. I can't say I'm glad I left... I just wish I didn't have to.
I guess I should start getting ready for the mission now. Can't have the team lead not be prepared right? Well... until next time.
To be continued, in book 3: A New Semester
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A Cold Winter: A College Life Story (Complete)
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