Dear future me

Dear future me,
Crushes...
I have three in total, and they are friends. They don't look like each other at all... but still,
We have Collin, a boy who is seventeen with a great sense of humor and he is so
Sweet to everyone! He has pretty brown hair and blue/green eyes
We have Noah, who has the best smile ever... but can be mean sometimes. He has blond hair and is fifteen. He has blue/grey eyes.
Then we have Jackson, he is sixteen and can sing! He is awesome but he
lives in America and I live in London... they all do, Jackson also has brown hair just like Collin... but he has blue/gray eyes just like Noah. That's the problem, Noah and Jackson are brothers!
Who I like the most? Collin... he is the oldest, but also the sweetest and the funniest! Oh god, I would give the world to be his friend...
I'm fifteen just like Noah, but being the same age is just... I don't know, I just want Collin! He is so cute!
I live near Covent garden and Collin lives in LA I think, what I want to say with this letter is that everyone has a crush... So, don't be a fool. dream about them at night, but when the reality kicks in... don't be disappointed, I had this ones... and I don't know if you remember it. But we were twelve. Yes we, I had a boyfriend James... I had a huge crush on him and loved him to the moon and back. I thought he was the one I was going to be with forever. He was cheating on me, clearly... and I didn't even wanted to realize that. It was a mistake, so never be like that again. You don't need a crush to be happy! And yes, Collin makes me smile no matter how bad I feel... That is the reason why I went to America... He was't there. It was the biggest mistake ever! I just missed him, he was also in La, and I went to the beach because I saw on his Instagram story that he was there. But he just left when I arrived, I went to America for him! It that's another story.
I love him, he is the one that I could talk and think about for hours. Even though he doesn't even know that I exist... I hate those cheesy lines when people say:" yeah he's still single because he hasn't met me yet." But sometimes i actually want to believe that is true in the case of Collin . I noticed that if I have a crush the only way to let him go is to find, or just happen to run into another crush... and that all started with James. So now I'm wondering, do you have a crush right now? Is it still Collin? Do you have a boyfriend? Or even an fiancé? It want to know it all so bad, but when I'm thinking about it I'm know I'm never going to be with Collin... He's just too perfect!  And I'm so scared that he'll find a girlfriend and that he never knew I existed... I really hope that if i'll ever find the one...I can love hims
Just as much as I love Collin...
Love,
Luna

(None of the people in this story are real!)