Dear future me

Friends?

Dear future me,
I have this friend... Joseph he is my best friend and he is funny, but I'm afraid that he wants more then just friendship. He is always whatsapping me and trying to get to know my crushes... Don't get me wrong, I obviously love him... but I love him as my best friend! Sometimes I ask him the same questions, but that's just to see if he is serious about it all. My other best friend, Emma always tells me that he is just kidding. But I know Joseph, He is not that type of boy that is trying to prank you with love stories. If he loves you, he loves you and he doesn't mess around. The problem is that he has emotional issues, he can't handle it when a girl cries or is sad... Then he just doesn't know what to do. And honestly I don't blame him! Because girls are complicated creatures, we can say that we're fine while we're actually not and then we expect the boy to fiend out! That's why he has some trouble finding a girlfriend lately... I also don't blame the girls though, yes we expect boys to understand us but we also just want our boyfriends to show us that they actually do care, even when it's obviously fake. It just makes us feel good about ourselves and about the relationship we have a that moment.
But what I actually want to say is that Joseph, I'm not afraid that you want more then friendship... I'm afraid that I'm going to lose you! Because I want you, and I love you... and I don't know what the hell I should do with my life without you, and that because you are my life! I guess I always knew I loved you. But now I realise that we are not going to be together forever, only now I want to admit it. Joseph... oh please don't leave me. Emma can say what she want but our love, our love as friends and as a couple... is stronger then you think. It really is, believe me... the next time I'll se you i will tell you everything! I promise, but until then... Please wait for me.
Love,
Luna