Dear future me,
I have been thinking, what if all of this is just in my head? Maybe he was the love of my life and I just wasn't his...
Or maybe I have been so caught up in his way of being him, that I forgot real reasons to be happy. And now that he is gone I find myself looking for answers why. Why did he leave and why wasn't I worth an explanation? What is the point of holding on to someone with all you have if you know that in the end, they'll leave you with nothing but a broken heart. Because that is what this is, me wanting you so bad that I am willing to break my heart over and over, and it is driving me crazy. And to be honest, it is kinda scaring me that I would not just break my heart... but I am also breaking my fucking mind whilst loving you. And even though this may all be a dream, all the pain is real. My feelings are real, the way I'm letting you know i want you is real. Everything is real.... except you, loving me.
That part was just an imagination, i think.
Because I know it hurts to have your heart broken. But knowing that you are not even worth an explanation is really killing me. So what is it? Was I just not good enough or are you too scared of your feelings? I really hope none of these are true. Because the part when people say "i love you too much to..." is just all a lie. Either you love someone or you don't.
all you do is hurt me. And don't get me wrong you mean the world to me. But I'm not willing to give myself up this time. This time I'll have to accept that I'm not worth you time, so I'm not going to let you take mine. This time I'm placing myself above you. You've had the chance to get me and you didn't take it. So I guess this is goodbye...
Bye, I'm thankful for the lessons I've learned. And that's because of you.
Bye, I'm really really letting go this time.
Bye, I will never forget you.
Bye...
Love,
Luna
(A/N; can I just say how much I hate this book atm? I think I': going to focus on my other book that I'm uploading in a bit! I really hope that you guys will like it. Xx)
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Dear future me
Teen FictionLuna writes letters to her future self, advice letters is what she calls them. The letters are supposed to help her 'future self' with al the problems she has in her life. She never knew why She did this... But it came in handy when she had an acci...
