Dear future me,
As I told you earlier, I once traveled all across the globe for a boy... and that boy was Collin . I'm writing this in a way that it seems a very long time ago... but it actually was this year. I was also fifteen just like now, but I was in love and did stupid things. I begged my parents to go and meet Collin, because he was all I wanted and all I needed. They let me, and I was so happy. Anyways I came there and he was not at the beach where I was supposed to meet him. I traveled ten hours to see him! I came all the way from fucking London and he wasn't there! I felt disappointed, how could he just let me down like that? Even though he probably never knew that I was there for him. Or that I even existed... he wasn't there...
And even though it seems like I was supposed to meet him... Like we talked about it. But that was the problem, we didn't! I just went there because I thought true love would help me this once... I was a fool. Meeting Collin wasn't destiny, that's why it didn't happen. I still need you, But I would never ever fly across the world for you! You can come to me if destiny changes its mind. But I won't force it anymore. It's time for me to understand the difference between what you really want... and what you really need. I need to see the difference between reality and dreams. Because even though living in your dream could be your reality... the reality will never be your dream.
And that dear Collin, is why I had and have to forget you... and that is why I have to tell my future self not to make this kind of mistakes again... Boys can be cruel you know, And yes! You are way to old for me but tell me! Does anything stop you if you think you're in love? Because I thought I was! Eight million people are! And you don't even try to tell us more, we want you! We all do... and you are special, the reality is tougher then you think. But you know what Collin? You are the one that keeps triggering us and then telling us that we are going "cray cray" if we think we see you with a girl. But you are the one that shows us the girls! And yes, we are a bit protective and yes we are obsessed with you but that is because we really care about you.
I lied to myself for the past six months, I kept telling myself that one day we would be together, because I loved you... and anything can happen! I really, really thought that we could happen Collin... and I would literally give the world for being your friend. But it would also kill me... I need you! I still do. And that is what you will never know. And never understand
Love,
Luna
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Dear future me
Teen FictionLuna writes letters to her future self, advice letters is what she calls them. The letters are supposed to help her 'future self' with al the problems she has in her life. She never knew why She did this... But it came in handy when she had an acci...
