Dear future me,
Letting you go is way harder then i thought it would be. You've meant so much for me the past months... You are the reason why i smile everyday and i don't know if i am ready to find someone else that can make me smile like that... You are the biggest crush i ever had, so letting you go isn't a one day process. Letting you go will be the hardest thing I've ever done. But in the end i know it will be worth it. You mean so much to me that i dont want to think about letting you go at this point. But loving someone unreachable is harder then it seems. It is so hard because you have to realise what you want to most will never be reality. And yes, you tangled me up with your cute laugh and your way of being you. But no, i dont want to live in a fantasy world. Because it will stop me from enjoying the life that i am supposed to live. I dont want my life to be a fairytale. I want my life to be real, for me to wake up everyday and that i found someone new who can make me smile. Because you and me ain't going to happen. And now that i realise it. Now that i found the strength to tell myself it's time to let you go... i fall back into the love i felt for you when all of this started. I feel the butterflies when your name pops up. And i feel the need to find quotes that remind me of you. Because every love quote i find, reminded me of you.
I just can't help it. I fall back into the woods that you kept me in. I see the trusty road and i start to walk the path again that i know way too well now. I see the castle of my prince charming, i run... i run again. I see you in the window and as soon as the gates open. The screen turns black. My dream is over the reality kicks in. I see my phone unlocked with a picture of you, i realise what just happened, you got me again. You control me. Every thing i do, every decision i make will always lead back to you. And the second i close my eyes, i see you... i see the path that i walk,i see the castle,i see the window, and the gates... when i close my eyes just one more time. I walk again, and then i run, i see you and i wave. But before the gates can open i grab a stick to make sure the gates will never open again. I see you in the window when i close my eyes. I see you from a distance... i do not want to get attached to you. Because i am afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid that you will leave me with noting but a broken heart...
Love,
Luna
(A/N; honestly idk what this is lol, I don't like this chapter but oh well. Hope you'll still enjoy it though! Xx)
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Dear future me
Teen FictionLuna writes letters to her future self, advice letters is what she calls them. The letters are supposed to help her 'future self' with al the problems she has in her life. She never knew why She did this... But it came in handy when she had an acci...
