Well I'm back I guess you could say it's been a while Lol I really thought I wouldn't write anything else on here but I just back back to talk I guess
Ok so today is October 4th Wednesday
If anyone reads my old story's would know the last time I saw NI was back in October 26th 2016 last time so in 23 days it will be a year yeah probably sounds like I'm obsessed and psycho but I guess you could say love makes you do crazy things To be honest I really don't have anymore feelings like I feel like he took everything out of me like I can't even look at someone and be able to say I like them it's so fucking hard and I'm so fucking confused 🤷🏻♀️ like I don't see him for a year like it's going to be a year in a couple days but I still miss him I remember like it was yesterday I saw him lol I swear I didn't want October to come around cuz of him I literally looked at the calendar every day and as I was getting closer and closer I broke apart and now that I'm here I don't know what to say or do and a lot of things In my life are fucked up like wtf I loved you for so long and I'm trying to move on but how tbh I really don't know if I still have feelings for you cuz when I think about you I don't feel the butterflies but are little memories make me smile sometimes I think it's the memories not the person idk I just miss you so much and I'm wondering are you going to think about me when the year comes up that we didn't see each other my friends tell me he loves me but I don't know I really don't believe he thinks about me the way I think about him everyday every night every time I go to sleep I literally stay up and toss and turn and thinking of the memories fuck I lost so much sleep There is this song I've been listening to and I can't lie it's so fucking true if anyone knows j Cole you my homie his song nothing last forever there's just one part that literally hits me like a fucking truck Ok I'm going to show you the lyrics
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Fuck j Cole said it best ya I know it's a old song but it's still a good one and if you never Heard it you should I guess there's nothing really else to say yeah I miss you yes I really want to see you yeah fuck I lost some hope and some nights I just literally gave up but I still hold on because you made me so fucking happy and sad at the same time and it's weird I know no one will really understand what I'm talking about if you never fall in love with someone and are you still Think love was great but let me tell you something love will fuck you up more than drugs whatever will it's a quota I don't want to who said it though
Like I said never fall for someone who doesn't show they love you tbh it doesn't matter how old the person is if you love them and they love you it's the big fucking deal Also always remember something if you love someone and they are there go up to them tell them don't late because you waiting is not going to get you nowhere hey if they don't feel the same it's Ok at least you don't have to Live with regret stay true be you never let anyone Bring you down do what you want say what you want hey if you fuck up and fall for The wrong person it's OK you'll find the right one I know I did just at the wrong time but be you don't change for anyone don't think you're not worth everyone's worth something to someone that's all got to say idk when I'll be back remember always have hope one day you will find what you always wanted
