Terminal. (Michael Clifford Fanfiction)

Chapter Three

"Logan drive to the hospital now!" I nearly scream.

"What?" his mouth drops and he turns to me with a pleading look.

"It's an emergency." I say with a blank expression.

"Did she.."

"Shut up Logan! She couldn't have! They said six months to a year remember." I almost yell.

"Maddie you never kn-" He stops and bites his lip. It's a good thing he didn't say anymore.

I jump out of the car as soon as the car is stopped and I run into the hospital. The receptionist looks up from her desk as soon as she sees me. She get in my path and places her hands on my shoulders.

"Miss you can't go in there, not now." she calmly says with that stupid pitiful smile she always gives me.

"I need to see my mom!" I spit and try to shove her out of the way.

"Ma'am she is-"

"I need to see her!" I repeat but instead of pushing the lady I slam both my fists into the wall with my tears pouring down my face. "Mom." I blankly say and slump down like the pathetic human being I am.

"Madeline calm down." I hear Logan's voice behind me.

I don't say anything I just cry harder and hit the wall one more time. For the rest of that hour I was sitting in the waiting room of the ICU I did a lot of thinking. Where I was sitting was full of people who only were getting ready for saying goodbye to someone they care about. Since my mom first got admitted into this place all I saw were people pacing and biting their nails, just bracing for terrible news. Every time a nurse walked down the hall people thought it was because they were finally going to receive that terrible news.

Then, at the end of that hour my dad walked down the hallway. I had hugged my dad twice in my life, once when mom first got told she was going to die, and then.

"Dad is she gone.." my legs started shaking and my hands were balled up into fists. I was waiting and my dad had a questioning look on his face, I don't know if he was questioning to tell me or not... but he would have to.

"Dad." I repeat myself and he snaps out of it.

"No." I let out a breath and relief washes over my face. "She had to have emergency surgery to have a tumor removed, she would have died if they hadn't found it."

"Can I see her?" He nods and moves out of my way.

"Maddie?" my dad calls after me, I turn to face him, "She won't be herself.. she on a lot of medication due to her pain and she won't be responding very much or at all... but she can hear you Madeline, know that."

I nod and walk down the hall.

I take a breath before I turn the door nob and walk in. She wasn't smiling like always, she looked like she was in pain.

"Mom?" I ask and sit next to her.

She didn't respond. She didn't move. She was just breathing.

"Mom I need to tell you some things.." I waited for a response.. nothing. "Listen, I-I know you have less than six months. I found out about the real diagnosis about two days ago, you and dad just didn't want to tell me and Logan to protect us. I know." I was crying by then. "I want to tell you, just in case I don't have the chance to again that I love you. I love you more than anything. Sixteen years isn't enough time to have a mom, I need to longer than that. I know through those sixteen years you gave me everything you could. And I took you for granted. I know I did. I gave you shit all the time, but for all the shit I gave you remember I loved you twice as much. Y-you were the best mom ever.. you were. To me and Logan both. I hope you know that. I hope you know that I would take your place, mom. I would. I would die in a second if it meant saving you, you deserve to be alive more than I do." I started crying even more. "I know you can hear me and I need you to hear at least this, I promise you I'll be everything you wanted me to be, I'll graduate high school just like you're watching me do it all. I promise. Wherever you end up going.. I'll be thinking about you."