Book 1 - Slit My Wrist, Hope to Die

Chapter 24 - Recovery: Part 1

            The bells jingle as the gentle wind pushes anything in it's path. There is no audio but the bells and even then, they fade away. The sunlight is heating up the metal, the soil, that one person in the little playground in her backyard. She looks at the bells and closes her eyes, taking in the breeze and jingle as they both slowly fade away. She opens her eyes and everything is blurry.

             Quickly and clumsy, she gets on her knees and starts crawling through the grass and mud, looking for a support. She comes across something rectangluar, small and smooth. Now, having found glasses, she puts them on and can see better than she could before. She gets up and brushes the soil off her knees, which are exposed for wearing shorts. Everything around her is taller than her, she feels like an infant. Heads for her house, but hears loud banging inside.

               Walking up to the door, she takes a look around; the mass garden from the other house is quite beautiful, and the horses running around give her comfort. She can see that chickens are laying eggs next door in their farm. She decides to check them out later. She looks up at the sun. It's heat blazing down onto her skin, roasting it slighty, making her tan and resistant. The girl sighs.

                  Turning back, she decides to check what is going on inside first, so she hops ontop of the boxes underneath the kitchen window and peeks in. There she spots a woman and man having sex on the counter top. Appalled, she quickly gets down, but stops mid-way, debating on looking again. "No," she thought. "Let's break it up." She jumps down from the box she was kneeling on and enters her house. They were no longer there and it was no longer a home.

              The loud banging soon turned to music blasting in her ear, the girl still little, but slightly taller and older looking, she walks through the hallway fulled with windows and one door at the end. She walks down the snow white hallway and looks through the first window on her left. She sees a man walk around a child, looking down. As she pulls back from the window, she grows a little. She looks at the next window on the right a little further up and sees a teen choosing what to get in four vending machines that offer: pill bottles, alcohol, sharpeners and little men toys. The teen picked all four, cheating each vending machine. She pulls back, grows a little.

                The next window on the left showed that teen a little older and holding hands with someone else. They slowly walked in place, the room is fulled with grass and a bench comes out of thin air and the couple sits on it. Then, lights start flashing in the room and she the teen goes in for the kiss, the other person starts changing into different people. They start kissing and the other person is still changing, kissing the older teen as they change. Pulling back, grows a little. The girls starts to walk up to the next and final window until the door when she hears screaming. The screaming becomes louder.

HEY! HEY! WAKE!

                She falls to the floor and covers her ears but the voice continues on. She goes into a fetal position and says to herself "Shut up, shut up. Go away. Now." She shuts her eyes tightly, and flexes her arms as she pushes them as close as she can to her ears. She rolls around on the ice floor, trying to shake away the voices that are screaming. She gets on her knees.

WA-WA-WAKE UP. YOU AR-ARE NOT-N-NU-

               She heads towards a wall. hands still on her ears.

WA-WA-   

              She lunges back.

U-U-U-UP. GO-GO-GO AHEAD. NO-

             She smahes her head into the wall as hard as she cans-

             Upon opening her eyes, Alex is greeted by a bright light and beeping monitors. She slowly moves her head side to side and scans the room as her eyes adjust. No one is here but-