Love Me Harder

Chapter 9

Jade POV:
Over the last hour or so I've been remembering more and more. I was attacked in a back alley a small distance away from the club me and Perrie went to. However I still have a blank spot in my mind as to what happened after I passed out and when I woke up in hospital. I've also noticed that although Perrie had been very loving as always and she's being so sweet but she seems like she hiding something. I don't know what gives me that impression but she just seems more quiet than usual.
The doctors have been in briefly a couple of times and I've had the cast on my arm changed to a permanent one so I can go home today hopefully. I jut feel sore all over and my whole body aches.

Perrie POV:
I've been wondering how I tell Jade what happened to her... that she was raped. I assume she doesn't know because when the doctors asked she said she had a blank area in her memories of the accident, although I was also wondering because I know what Jade is like and I know she wouldn't want to discuss something like that with just anyone.
I've not slept all night so I'm not in the best mind set right now but I feel as though I have to tell Jade sooner rather than later, she has the right to know. I've been wondering whether I should tell her before we leave the hospital or when we get home and she's in her own bed with just us.
10 minutes later:
Just as I think I've almost made my mind up, I hear a knock and the door and a doctor walks in slowly. "Miss Thirlwall?" He questions and looks at a tired looking Jade. She just looks up sadly at him and waits for him to continue. "Your all free to go, take your time, get your things together and Perrie has assured me that you won't be alone at home, so just take it easy and I we'll see you in three weeks for you to have your cast changed." He gives an understanding smile and Jade just nods and returns a fake half attempted smile back. "Thank you" I give a small smile as he walks out the door again clicking it shut softly on his way. "That's good news isn't it jadey?" I sit gently on the edge of her bed and give her a soft hug making sure not to put too much pressure on her ribs. "Yeah.. I just want my own bed" she gives me a small smile. "Oh and you know what else?" I look at her intrigued as this is the first glimpse of my old Jade I've seen since she woke up. "What would that be princess?" I question her. "Cuddles" she says simply and that's the point where I see her first real smile. "Your wish is my command" I give her a quick kiss on her lips and get up knowing she's going to need quite a bit of help with getting ready. I felt so bad, Jade seemed to finally be coming round and seeming to feel slightly better, the pain killers must be finally starting to kick in. But then I have to try and break the news to her about the full story of what happened.
"Jesy bought you some clothes to change into babe" I say sweetly. "Okay, thanks.. but, erm.." Jade replies with her voice trailing away towards the end. "What's up?" I ask as I sit back down on the edge of her bed. "Can you help me?" She asks almost Shyly and it makes my heart break, whoever that dick was that did this to her as sure fucked her up big time. All I know is that I'm going to be here the whole time to comfort her and help her get through this. "Of course I will baby" I smile back and she returns it with a small smile from her self. I know she's in pain, I can see it in her face and I can hear it in her words.

1 hour later:
Jade POV:
Finally we were back at mine and Perrie's apartment and I wanted to do nothing more than just sleep in my beds whilst I was sleeping I couldn't feel any of this pain. I still feel odd though, something's not right. Of course I wouldn't be feeling good, I was attacked less than 24 hours ago but it was different and I didn't like it. "Babe do you want me to help you with the stairs?" Perrie asks me. "I'm good I think" I reply honestly. My ribs were putting me on a lot of pain but as long as I took them slowly I was sure I'd be fine. "Okay then babe be careful, I'm going to get something's and then I'll bring them up" Perrie shouts a little as she walks into the kitchen ad I begin my climb up the stairs.

Perrie POV:
I dropped jades bags at the bottom of the stairs as soon as we came in. It was only now I realised I was still wearing last nights dress which was wet still and Jesy's hoodie which she kindly gave me whilst we were looking for Jade. As I walk through the halls to the kitchen I stop in front of the full length mirror and see the mascara I have all over my face and my hair just looks like one big knot! I laugh slightly to myself as I think of how much of a state I look and yet no one had even mentioned it. I needed a bath. I was still freezing but I would not allow myself to put off telling Jade any longer: I had to do it so I would rather just get it done with.
Once I'd grabbed the things I needed for me and Jade which included; extra blankets, some chocolate, 2 mugs of tea, a hot water bottle, and the medication Jade had been given by the hospital, I put it all on a tray and threw the bags over my shoulder and walked up the stairs to my room where me and Jade had been sleeping recently of course and find her cuddled on top of the duvet with one of my hoodies for warmth. Although she was laying in a funny position which I was assuming was because of her ribs, she still looked so adorable! "Hey baby girl" I say softly as I can see how tired she is, well that made 2 of us! "Hi" she replies as I place the tray on the small table next to the bed. "Baby I know your probably super tired and so am but I have something I have to tell you and I can't wait any longer.." she sits up a little ad I speak and I help her get comfy as I move closer to her. "Okay..?" I can see the confusion in her eyes and I don't know how I'm going to do this's it will break her heart and mine. "Jade.. that guy, he.. he raped you.."