Love Me Harder

Chapter 10

Jades POV:
Everything's silent for a few moment after Perrie's words whilst I guess I'm taking things in. It's makes sense really, the feeling I had.. that's what it is. I knew what happened, somewhere in the back of my mind it was there but at the sound of Perrie's words it was all bought back to me. The events of last night play over and over in my mind. I can hear his shouts and I can feel his hands on me. It's like it's happening all over again.. "Jade..?" Perrie brings me back into the present and all my emotions are so high and yet it's like I'm frozen In time.
A few moments later I feel Perrie wrap her arms gently yet so reassuringly around me and I know that's definitely what I needed. That's when all my pain and every other emotion comes out as I just cry into her body. I don't know what else to do. I hate crying in front of people but this is perrie and this whole thing has messed me up. "Jadey it's okay baby I've got you" she says softly as her hand rubs gently up and down my back. She continues to whisper sweet nothings and her words are so reassuring and just to her her voice makes me know I'm safe.

Perrie POV:
Jade's reaction was pretty much what I expected. She was shocked and then the years came. I don't blame her. At this point I just wanted to cry with her. The lack of sleep didn't help! But I knew I had to be strong for Jade. I was going to look after her. She needed me to be there for her and to look after her so I couldn't let my own emotions get on the way because that would just be selfish.
After about 20 minutes, her cries and sobs have turned into the odd small whimper which still breaks my heart but I think she's just used all her energy and physically cannot cry anymore. "Perrie..?" She tilts her head ever so slightly to look up at me and as her sweet bambi brown eyes look up at me they melt my heart like every other time she does that. "Yes gorgeous?" I smile lovingly at how sweet she's being. "I love you Per, and I know this is hard for both of us but we will get through it together, I know we will." She says quietly and yet so confidently and I definitely was be expecting to hear those words. She's always so strong and that's one of the things I love about her. She's just been through one of the most horrible and unthinkable things a person can go through and yet she's still so brave. My eyes fill with tears at her words and I lean down and kiss her head ever so softly. "I love you so much Jade and I cannot believe how brave your being. Yes we will get through this together but you don't have to act brave of your not feeling it inside, it's okay to admit your scared and hurting" I tell her softly. I know what jades like, she likes to put everyone before her self and will always protect everyone's feelings before her own. "Per, I'm so fucking scared it's unreal and I don't know how we're going to do this but I know we will because we're Jerrie remember?" She smiles a little and yet the fear still shines through in her eyes. "That's right my little Jadey, we have each other so we will be okay eventually." I reply and it's just one of those bitter sweet moments. A horrible situation but a beautifully loving few minutes for us in the middle of all this darkness.

Jade POV:
Like I said to Perrie, I'm so fucking scared but we have each other and there always has to be a happy ending, if it's not happy then it's not the end.
My beautiful Perrie looked more tired than I felt bless her. "Jadey I'm going to have a bath I think, will you be okay for a little while on your own?" She asks me and in that moment I know exactly what I want. "Well yeah but you know what would be even better..?" I ask her slightly cheekily. "What would that be princess?" She looks at me with a confusion in her eyes. "If I could join you..." I say quietly. "I would love that but only if you feel okay?" She smiles. "The truth is I feel absolutely shit but when I'm in your arms I feel so much better and a bath with my beautiful girlfriend is all I would like right now." I say sweetly. "That's sorted then! You wait here and I'll run us a lovely bath and we can both relax and just be together." She smiles and gets up walking towards the bathroom.
Whilst Perrie is on the bathroom I manage (with a lot of pain and struggling I may add) to get undressed and get a towel for me and Perrie. I wrap mine around my aching body because I realise Perrie hasn't seen all my cuts and bruises yet and even I haven't had time take in the full extent of them. It's horrific. There's barely an inch of my body that's not got a mark from him on it. As i sit back down on the bed and wait for Perrie to tell me she's ready I can't help but look over all the marks. I'm drawn to one in particular, the definite hand print that can be made out on my right inner thigh, it makes me feel like his hand is still there, almost like I can feel is rough hands on me. At that point I have to get up quickly and I make my way to the bathroom where Perrie is. Being alone is not what I need right now. I need her by my side to let me know everything will be okay.

Perrie POV:
The bath had finally filled up, it was nice and warm but not too hot, just how Jade and I preferred it. I added some bubbles but not too many because I didn't want them to irritate Jade cuts and things or make the sore. I was just about to shout her when she opens the door slowly appearing a little shaken. "What's wrong bubba? What happened?" I ask her. "Nothing, I'm okay now." She replies. I knew there was something but I didn't want to push her. It was to be expected after what had happened. She puts the towels onto the radiator and I can see her trying to cover her self once she removes the towel from around her. I don't want to stare or even really look at her because the marks all over her body are horrific and I know how she probably feels but there's just so many. "It's okay baby.. I understand how your feeling about your body but I promise I still think your beautiful no matter what and I just want to make you feel better." I say hoping it will give her a little reassurance. "Thank you.." she smiles a little as I get into the bath and I'm so thankful to finally have some warmth on my skin after being in my wet clothes for so long. I make room in front of me so Jade can get in and relax against my body. I see her flinch as she lowers her self down and her small groans break my heart. "Okay baby your okay, the water will make you feel a little better I think." I help her relax against me and to help her get comfy as she can considering the situation. "Is that okay? Is the water alright? Can I do anything?" I ask her worriedly. "It's perfect Perrie, it all is." She says as she rests her head against my chest and I hold her close to me hoping to offer her some comfort and just forget about everything for a little while. "I love you" I say softly. "I love you too" she replies"