Cass flopped down onto her bed, sighing in relief.
She knew that she had to get away from Varian as fast as she possibly could.
If she was around him for a long time, she knew what would happen.
Her heart would start pounding, her stomach would start fluttering, and she wouldn't know what to do. She hated feeling helpless, not knowing what to do, but, at the same time, the odd sensation she felt whenever she was around him for some time...
It was oddly satisfying, that's all she could think.
Avoid it at all costs.
Never get attached.
Her mind raced as she thought about Varian.
He was younger than her- three years, but still- and they both worked long hours at the palace. It- whatever exactly it was- could never, ever work out.
Urgh, how she hated emotions and feelings, and just... yuck.
But she had to sort through her thoughts.
~-~
Dear Diary-
Urgh. All sorts of thoughts and feelings are coursing through me, and I cannot identify anything anymore...
What is going on?
I feel as if I'm under some sort of spell, a spell that makes me- ugh- feel things.
And for Varian, of all people!
I mean, like what the heck?!
Yuck.
When I'm around him, I feel... I don't even know. It just feels... different, odd, whenever I'm around him.
Craziness.
I mean, he's younger than me, way "out of my league," and... and there's no possible way a sweet, innocent boy the likes of him could possibly see me as more than a friend, or even a sister figure...
What am I even saying? I don't like him!
Urgh!
-Cassandra
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Every Step of the Way
Fanfiction"Sometimes, when there are no given steps, you need to take the first ones." ~-~ Years have passed since Varian first met Cassandra. Life is going okay for him- he's gotten his first job, and he's actually being taken seriously by everyone- but he c...
