{Happy September 1st... it's back to Hogwarts day! But I'm stuck here in Muggle school instead... making the best of things, I suppose. Also, kudos to those who "flooded my notifications" this morning- over half of the ten notifications were votes for my story! Thank you SO much... *hugs*}
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Varian had to stay focused that day, he really did, but his mind kept wandering.
Wandering to her.
It was never good if someone's mind kept wandering during work, especially if that someone was an alchemist who was working with chemicals.
He scolded himself and shook his head, cleaning up before washing his hands and sitting down at his desk.
"I can't do this," he whispered to himself, "it wasn't my choice to fall for her... and so quickly, too... it wasn't my choice to have this job... well, in a way, it was, but it's on a whole new level now... if it were my choice, I wouldn't even be thinking about her right now... I would be getting my job done for today so that I could maybe see her again later..."
He continued to talk to himself, part soothing himself and part agitating him further. He started writing, because that, too, soothed yet agitated him.
A knock on his door jolted him out of his reverie.
"Come in!"
The door opened, and Cassandra entered.
"Oh, hey there, Cassie," he said as soon as he saw her, "what are you doing here?"
"I just wanted to stop by. Bring lunch. You know, the usual."
He just nodded quietly and she sat down across from him.
"What have you been working on?" she asked, handing him his lunch and setting up hers.
"Um, nothing much," he lied, keeping his eyes on the desk.
He wouldn't dare look at her. All sorts of feelings would come rushing into his body, making him feel things he didn't want to feel. It would only be an invitation for more thoughts of her to come and interfere with his work, and he could not allow that.
"Nothing much? You look like you're busy... writing complex equations, perhaps? Writing down your discoveries and theories?"
He looked down at his writing, turning a bright red as he realized that it wasn't alchemy- or chemistry-related at all...
He had been pouring out all of his emotions onto a simple scroll of paper.
"Um, yeah," he fibbed, rolling the scroll up, "something like that."
"Varian, are you okay?"
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Every Step of the Way
Fanfiction"Sometimes, when there are no given steps, you need to take the first ones." ~-~ Years have passed since Varian first met Cassandra. Life is going okay for him- he's gotten his first job, and he's actually being taken seriously by everyone- but he c...
