Damsel In Distress (A Tom Hiddleston Story)

Prologue

Prologue

CLAIRE

I tried. God knows I did. But life and I just didn't get along so well. I tried to be as positive as I could. I tried so hard to be the best that I can be. I tried so hard to prove them wrong. I tried so hard to live up with their expectations. I tried so hard to prove something to myself. I tried. I tried. I tried so hard. Oh yes I did. But no matter how much I did, it seems like it was never enough. I was never enough. Never enough it is.

The difference is just too much. We fit together but we just don't. Things are complicated. I love him. But we can't stay together any longer. I feel like I don't deserve him. He's tried so hard to make me see how worth it I am. How I deserve the best. But I just don't think so. I hate to see him suffer with me. I hate to see him try so hard and yet fail just like me. I hate to see him put in so much faith and hope in me. I hate to see him try as hard as I do because he believes so much in me. I hate to see him risk so much and lose as much. I hate to see him fail in me because I myself know nothing but failure. 

They say I'm so good. They see me so positively but I can't see that myself. I wish I could just give in. I wish I could just go with the flow. I wish I can believe them. I wish I had the strength. I wish I was as good as they believe I am. I wish was as strong and stable as they think I am. I wish I am what they always see and believe I am. 

But the problem is...

                                      ...I'm just not.