Undercover Love

Stressed

Actually holding his son grounds him back to this world. He can feel his sons heart beat. He can feel his soft skin. He's here. He's real.

"I forgot to ask," he'd been so soaked up in the little eyes looking up at him he forgot to ask about her. "How was the birth? Did it go well?"

She looks away from Rossi who's seating in the corner. "It was fine. I was unconscious for it so I have no memory of it." It's the complete opposite of when he'd lied to her about Foyett and he knows it just like she'd known when he'd lied. 

"Emily," Rossi warns, just because Hotch is now in the clear from the pneumonia the wreck's injuries are still there and dangerous. The last thing they need is getting him worked up. 

She clenches her teeth blows out a breath," I almost died Aaron. They had to give me three transfusions and I died on the table. They didn't think I was going to make it."

He just looks at her. "Why didn't you... why didn't you tell me?"

She sets her jaw and through clench teeth she asks," will you take the baby, Dave?"

He gives Hotch an apologetic smile as he takes the infant from his father's arms. As he takes the baby out Dave cues," we can come back and see daddy. Yeah? You wanna do that?"

Emily reaches up and takes his hand," I haven't had the chance to tell you. I woke up in the hospital to find that our sons were both in critical care and you were on your death bed. I was alone as the team bounced between the four of you. Even when all of them were in there I was completely alone because the only person I wanted wasn't there. And then I was finally cleared to be able to come in here and I couldn't find comfort in that. You didn't even look like you. And here I am spilling all this out. No doubt making you upset, which we're supposed to avoid at all cost." She wipes away a tear and turns away from him. 

"Emily," he whispers. He reaches for her hand but she pulls  away from him.

"And now I've taken your son from you so I can pour my heart out." She laughs coldly," what am I doing? We're not even married." She turns to look at him, tears in her eyes and heart in her hands. "Do you even love me?"

He can't touch her but his words work. "Our, Emily. Our son and if marriage means that much to you.." He'd had the night of the crash. A little ring that he bought impulsively. He didn't know where they stood that night at Halloween and decided that if nothing else it could be a promise ring. He just needed an official name to what they are. When he woke up for the first coherent time it's cool slick feeling had reminded him what he was fighting for. He holds that up now to show her. "I've had it for weeks, Emily. When I woke up it reminded me that I wasn't alone. And damn if you wanna get married say yes. I love you, Emily. I do and something tells me that I won't ever be able to stop."

She starts to sob and the ring is forgotten as Hotch tries as best he can to comfort her. She waves him off but keeps crying. "God, Aaron, I missed you so much." She stands up and seats on the edge of the bed so he can hold her. "I was so worried about every thing that I just got angry." 

He rubs her back," I know. I'm sorry that you were so stressed."

She puts her head on his shoulder and takes all that she can. "There's no one I'd rather stress about."

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Jack, Jason, and Emily all lay on the bed with him. Emily stretched out by his side with Jack's head on her lap. Jason lays in his arms. Jack had been watching Jason hold their father's finger when he'd fallen asleep. 

Hotch is on the verge of falling asleep himself when Emily whispers," yes." He's still confused when she continues. "Yes. Let's do it. Let's get married." 

The nurse had just come in to dope him again with the fantastic pain killers that are kicking his butt. He yawns and lays his head against hers," good." He yawns again and whispers," I love you."

Love swells in her heart at his words and she smiles at the baby in his arms and the small boy in hers. "I love you, too."

I'll write more about the baby in the next one promise! Sorry I haven't updated this in so long, my daily fic update leaves little room for much else
-SH

P.S. OH MY GOD GUYS I'VE BEEN WRITING FOR A YEAR NOW ON WATTPAD! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!