Brutal Love - E.D

broken pieces

I didn't know what was going on in my mind. I couldn't comprehend what i was feeling, I've never felt so devastated and lost in my life.

Sure he was my ex and usually exes have resentment towards eachother but with me and Alex it was different, he love him and it was mutual but I love Ethan and he was the one I wanted to be with.

I've always had the wrong idea of the difference between a need and a want.

I drove as fast as I could,unable to control what I was doing. I went way over the speed limit and I broke every red light.

I drove until I saw police vehicles, red tape, ambulance and news channels. I weakly got out of my car and ran over to the scene. I pushed passed a lot of people and there he was lying on the floor. Lifeless.

I crossed the yellow tape but police stopped me. "You can't do that ma'am" the officer said and grabbed my hand roughly. "Let her" Alex's manager said and the officer let go of me reluctantly.

I ran over to his body and got on my knees. I picked up his heavy body and placed him in my lap. I watched as blood ran out his nose and head.

I felt even more weak as I held his lifeless body in my arms. My tears dripped on his face as I watched my tears mix with his blood.

"Alex" i cried out while I shakily caressed his cheeks. "W-why?" I asked in shaky voice while my bloody hands trembled. I moved a strand of hair from his face as i looked at him.

His eyes were still open and they were bloody. I closed his eyes while my body shake with tears. "Who took you from me?" I asked while I caressed his face again.

I hugged him and it reminded me of the first time we hugged. I held on to his lifeless body tightly then I let go of him when I felt his broken spine. I kissed his forehead before I got up.

I started walking towards the yellow line but turned around to look at him one last time. "Oh Alex" I weakly cried out before running back to his body.

"My heart can't take this" I clutched my chest while my Tears streamed down my face. "Ma'am we need to take his body" a doctor said behind me.

"No" I weakly said as he called the officers for me. "Ma'am you need to go" the officer lifted me up by arm and I started fighting back until I got tased.

The pain of being tased was nothing compared to what my heart felt. I was being carried away as I watched Alex's body get covered.

"Alex!" I screamed and tried fighting back again but i was tased 3 times, the pain still didn't hurt as much. "Alex don't leave me!" I yelled as I saw the ambulance drive off with his body.

The officers let go of me then they left. Alex was gone forever. He left me alone with Ethan.

I got in my car and started driving. I couldn't control myself. My vision was blurry with tears so I stopped in the middle of the road. I sat in my car sobbing and hitting my steering wheel often.

I got tired of crying so I started driving again, driving to Ethan's place.