LEFT MATELESS

XIII

The night was rough. It was the first night in over a year that I slept alone and I wasn't liking it. I felt when Serenity became apart of the pack and my wolf howled and cried. I cried and cut myself off from the pack link and wallowed in my pity. But I was only giving myself tonight to grieve. That I promised my wolf and myself. Only tonight because he wasn't mine to begin with and I knew but still hoped that he could be mine. How foolish was I. The night had also brought other surprises like Serenity's brother in my bed holding me. No matter how many times I removed his hands from my body they always came back. I may or may not have stabbed him a total of 19 times with a my practice knife but that didn't seem to stop him.

It was annoying really. I wanted to kill him but then I needed to live for both me and my child. Finally getting out of bed at the but crack of dawn. I went and had a shower and then went down stairs to have breakfast leaving him in bed and also reminding myself to burn my sheets after he left as well as my mattress because they were covered in his blood. Deciding i'd go for a run before the pack got up and started moving around I ate my breakfast of eggs and sausage quickly while putting the extra on a plate in the microwave for when he got up out of bed and then left my house. The run was nice and soothing. I was able to loose myself in my thoughts and relieve the stress to my being. When I got to the clearing I looked around and made sure I was alone and stripped out of my clothes and jumped into the pond that was at the very edge. Going under water and swimming to the underwater tunnel that came out into an underground cavern. Coming out from under the water i'm greeted with the usual green clearing. Deciding its safe to shift here I let my wolf out and let her run out her frustration and hurt.

Shes not even mad hes found his mate. She mad that since then his wolf or him haven't spoken or even tried to speak with us but I can't blame. But I agree with my wolf. They could've shot us a thank you or a are you ok but no we've got nothing but we'll be fine.

After running around and exploring the cavern and the tunnels that come out of it we go back to the clearing to lay down and sleep. Hours later I wake up in my human form well rested and actually at peace. This place has always done that for me. No matter what I got going on I've always been able to come here and just let all my worries melt away. Getting back into the water my wolf wakes and lets me know that the pack have been trying to reach me but we've been blocked off. Even Serenity tried to push her way in but failed just like all the others.

Coming out the tunnel and back into the pond I come up out the water to see the clearing covered in wolves all around my clothes sniffing. The previous alpha and luna are there in tears with alpha and luna shadow as well as Damien and Serenity. Staying in the water with only my head half way out the water I listen to what there saying about me.

"I told you you should've talked to her." Damien's father says.

"I told you I would dad." Damien says.

"Yea but I guess you were to late. 3 years. You dated the girl for 3 years. You loved the girl and you don't know where she would have went." His father states.

"We weren't together all the time. I had alpha training and she trained to. We gave each other space. I wanted to hang with the guys and she went and did her own thing with the fae's." Damien states.

Damien's dad chuckled. "You never like the fae prince because he wanted her to."The shadows gasp.

"What do mean fae prince." Alpha Shadow asks.

"There first date he took her to the paint ball park. There she met the fae prince and they've been in contact since. She brought him to me one time because she wanted permission for him and his guardian to come onto our lands. I said yes cause he vouched for them. They caused no problems so i didn't see any issues. Do you think shes with them." the past Alpha states.