16 and Pregnant (colby brock)

I was wrong

I drove to Alec's house as quick as I could. Many tears rolled down my cheek, that I couldn't control. I didn't want to cry over that boy. He didn't deserve my tears. Yet I let myself cry because I knew that I was falling in head first, but I needed someone to catch me before I fully took damage.

Pulling up to his house, I knocked. No answer. I knocked a couple more times but then tried to see if the door was open, which it was. Entering it went up the stairs where his room was, and made my way to his door.

I stoped myself at the sound of his voice speaking to someone else. A girl. The feminine voice spoke up, laughing telling him she had a good time or whatever the hell she was talking about.

I looked through the crack of the door, and saw the both of them breathing heavily, in only their undergarments. Tears began to trickle down my face, and I had accidentally let out a loud cry. Both jumped and Alec's eyes met mine. I quickly ran down the stairs before hands met my waist.

"I thought i could trust you, you jerk."

"Trust me it's not what it looks like!" He said.

"Is that like some new saying, because I've heard that excuse ever damn time I get hurt. It is what it looks like Alec, and I'm really hurt because I did have strong feeling for you and I'm upset that you basically played me. I'm done with you, along with every other damn male."

I got out of his grip and ran out the door and into my car. I quickly drove off and went back home. All I needed was my self. Nothing else.

***
As soon as I got home I ran upstairs changing into a tank top and some sweats. I was upset. I had a box I had put pictures in from a while ago. I opened it and began to look through it.

It was almost all pictures of Colby and I. Some of me my mom and my sister. I missed Colby. I missed his laugh. I missed his voice. I missed his cuddles. I missed us.

I knew I was getting older, soon being able to leave the house. But in reality, I wasn't ready. I knew I didn't have anyone that'd be able to live with me and take care of the kid with me. Which made me scared and sad.

But the most confusing topic of all was Colby. He was like an ocean that I'd constantly take comfort in, but ended up getting hurt by. He took me in with his waves, but continued to push me back out.

I wasn't going anywhere but further under.
***
I woke up to my alarm. Great another day of school. I got ready in Leggings and a big sweater shirt that said Harvard. I straightened my hair and put in some pearl earrings with my white converse and left the house. I was nervous. I basically had no friends because of me and Alec's fight. I mean I guess Colby could be considered as a friend. Whatever. I went to my bus stop got on the bus and went to school.

***At School***
After i got off the bus I got my books out of my locker and went to sit on a bench since I had about 10 minutes till school started. I scrolled through my instagram when I saw one of Colby's posts from yesterday. It was him captioned "I guess you can't trust anyone." With a heartbreak emoji. I'm guessing Shea and him broke up. Excitement filled my body as i soon realized they broke up. Wait. Why am I excited. He has probably moved on he wouldn't want to date me again.

I know I would want him. I do. I need him.

Maybe I sound crazy and clingy but I do need him. We, as in the baby and I, needed him.