The Thoughts of a Quiet Person

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Some people say I think too much. I agree, but only because I'd rather think and stay quiet then talk. But I see it as looking at every possibility of what could happen. I've googled why I do this; taken online tests. They all called my behavior General Anxiety Disorder or GAD, but they said it cannot be confirmed unless said so by a doctor. But what person tells their doctor,
"I think I have anxiety," ? Even if I did bring it up, it'd only attract attention to myself as well as cost quite a boat load. So I've decided to keep to myself and leave everyone in peace.

Speaking of leaving people in peace, I like to think I'm just being a good person. But really, I do it for reasons of my own. 1. The person I "left in peace" probably has enough other stuff to take care of. I really shouldn't throw unnecessary crap on them to worry about. 2. I'm not good at talking to people. 3. I probably wouldn't know how to answer their response if I did tell them. 4. I'm so awkward only about 5% of people could maybe be comfortable conversing with me. There are other reasons I don't talk to people, for example the thousands of "what - ifs" that could happen. But sometimes I ask myself,
"Am I just making up reasons to fret to make it seem like I have anxiety?"

I probably do that. In fact, I'm almost positive I do that. Most likely because I want something that makes me feel special, but doesn't everyone?

Me entire life I've wanted a super power. Maybe just for the attention. Maybe not.