The Thoughts of a Quiet Person

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Whilst writing this, I'm doubting if it's actually helping me at all. I was supposed to be pre-planning my chapter and poem but this had just turned into a bad journal.

I've tried keeping diaries before, but I'd write three entries and throw the diary away because I was too lazy to write in it every day. This will probably end up being the same case. Oh well. Doesn't hurt to try, right? Wrong. But that's what everybody will tell you anyhow. From my experience, if I tried something and failed, I was discouraged from trying it again. That happened with a lot of stuff. My advice is to rethink about doing something if it scares you. Use your common sense. You might end up liking it, but if you don't you might be traumatized forever.

Anyways, I think I've been turned into this shy, awkward weirdo from one thing in particular: homeschool. At some point, every kid had wanted to stay home from school. Or give up on life all together... But let's stay on topic. During my six months of homeschool I basically had zero interaction with people outside of my family and strangers at Safeway. I never saw other kids or teachers. I pretty much stayed home all day, every day. The effect? I became non-social and friendless. And also really lazy. But by the time I got back to regular school, I had gone back to normal. At least I thought I had. I didn't realize homeschool had affected me so mush until 8th grade, almost two years later. Now, I've realized it made me nervous to talk to people and especially scared to stand up for myself. Maybe or maybe not had given me the anxiety side effects. But even if homeschool has, I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe that one's whole life is planned and nothing with change it. Most of the time whatever happened proved my thought right. But that's most of the time.