Colors of Confusion

Chapter 6

Fawn starts her car and she begins to drive towards the garden supply store.  We when we walk around the store in silence for  a couple of minutes.

“So about that text.” I start and Fawn gives me a glance, before sighing.

“How about in another place, like a restaurant or somewhere more private.”She suggest grabbing a pack of seeds. I groan and let her finish shopping”Where do you want to eat at?”

“Maybe The bakery, I’ve been  craving  cupcakes.” I tell her and she nods and head to the front of the store. She buys the items and we head out of the store and back to her car. When we get in she starts the car and begins to drive to the local bakery. When we arrive at the bakery we get out and head in. Fawn goes to the counter and buys us a dozen of  cupcakes. She places them on the table I was sitting at.

“So, you want to know about the text I sent.” Fawn says  grabbing a cupcake. I take one and nod.

“W-well it’s nothing I was probably just tired.” Fawn says, taking a bite out of her cupcake. I roll my eye and do the same.

“If it was nothing why do you keep avoiding it?” I ask and Fawn freezes.

“It’s not important.” She says, then she mutters” I’m not important.”

I pause shocked, I don’t know if I heard her right. How could she feel unimportant, she was a club president and had friends who cared deeply about her. I glance at her and she was staring at the floor.

“Do you mind repeating that?” I ask quietly, she sighs.

“I’m not important.” She says

“You are important, your my friend and a club leader. You're very talented in floral design and gardening. Why do you feel like you don’t matter.” I ask and she refuse to make eye contact with me.  

“I wish I could believe you.” She says sadly. I had to do something to make her feel better at least open up.

“I’m uncomfortable and scared of being gay.” I tell her and her head snaps up and looks at me.

“W-what? W-why?” She asked clearly confused.

“I feel like it's wrong for me to be gay. I feel like I don’t deserve to be with anyone.” I tell her and she glances down for a second before responding.

“You deserve to be in a relationship, you are one of the kindest people I know.”Fawn says” and don’t worry about bullies or anyone else I’m your friend and I’ll help you out.”

I smile kindly at Fawn, it felt nice to her that coming from her.

“Just so you know I’m here for you to,  just know you can talk to me whenever.”I reply. She nods and takes another cupcake as my phone vibrates. I take it out to see that Jaime texted me.

Free food:Hermanito, are you free tomorrow??

Me: Yeah why?

Free Food: Because we are hanging tomorrow. Meet me at the cooking club after school.

 Just as I got of the conversation with Jaime, Elizabeth texts me.

Actress: So I think I found this mystery boy.

Me:Really?!

Actress: Yeah, when can you stop by the drama club?

Me:Maybe next Wednesday, Because I’m hanging out with Jaime tomorrow.

Actress: Alright!

I turn off my phone and give Fawn my attention.

“Are you ready to go? Also you can have the rest of the cupcakes.”Fawn says I smile and take the container filled with 8 cupcakes. We get up and walk to Fawn’s car.  Fawn drops me off.

“Hello Soutine.” My mom says as I walk through the door.

“Hey mom!” I reply, I put the cupcakes in the kitchen and then head to my room and do some homework. When I finish my homework, I take out my sketchbook and draw the first thing that comes to mind. When I finish I see I sketched a picture of Luke, I close my sketchbook blushing furiously.

I put my sketchbook on my desk and get ready to take a shower. After I get out the shower, I put on my pajamas and head downstairs for dinner,

“How was your day, honey?” My mom ask putting shepherds pie on the table.

“It was okay.”I tell her scooping some of the food onto my plate.We talk about Idle things before I clean my plate and head up to my room and go to sleep. When I wake up and do my normal routine for mornings where sasha doesn’t pick me up. When my bus pulls up I get on and head to school, when Sasha gets on we have idle chat, until the bus pulls up at the school, I get off the bus and head to the art room, when I get there I see Gatio sketching in his sketchbook. I set beside him and look at his picture.

“Is that Amor?” I ask teasily and his face turned bright red and I burst out laughing.”Sorry, couldn’t resist.”

“ It’s ok.” He mutters closing his sketchbook. “ So are you still going help me?”

“Of  course, I said I would didn’t I, I don’t go back on my word.” I tell him and smiles. We talk until class starts. Mr. Gold begins teaching and we listen.

“ Alright you guys have a project due next week.” Mr. Gold says.”  You can use any technique, but there is only one rule. You have to draw a picture that has  do with the heart and things you care about.”

This shouldn't be hard. I think as the bell rings, I go through my day like normal. It took less convincing Luke to sit with my friends at lunch. After lunch the rest of the day goes by faster than normal . At the end of the day I head to the cooking club like I promised Jaime.

“Hermanito!”Jaime exclaims as I walk through the doors.

A/N: Another Chapter done, yay!! I can’t believe how far I have progress, next chapter will be Jaime and Soutine, and A surprise thing that happen in the first version but I’m changing it alot. SO anyway Baii talers in traing and see you later.