Reminisce ( Book One of the Lunar series )

Chapter Eight

All was dark, I couldn't feel anything, but I could still hear the anguished cries Seth had made, and my Pack's mournful cries. I was over come with grief.

" You left me." He said, those words echoed the loudest.

What if I had stayed to watch Luna and Paul take care of Seth's body. How could this happen?

He wasn't supposed to come back, he should've stayed dead. That I could live with.

What happened that night, seeing him again, only to have him taken from me. That. Well I don't know how I could survive after that.

"Lexa, Lexa." Seth cried. I swear I could see his face, his hair, his emerald eyes.  I wanted to go to him.

"Lexa."  Seth's voice morphed into Brendon's, and I realized someone was touching my face.

 My eyes snapped open and I pulled away from whoever was touching me with a snarl.

Brendon just stayed extremely still with a hurt expression on his face. I felt sick to my stomach, and darted toward the nearest trash bin, and emptied my stomach in it.  Brendon came over to pat my back but I flinched away from him. I didn't want anyone to touch me.

He stood up and backed away a step, his curls covering half his face as he looked down at the ground.

" Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded.

" You've been unconscious for almost three days."

I said nothing. I couldn't find my voice, all I wanted to do was curl up in my bed and lie there.

" You would've died  if you were human, I guess in a way you kinda did."

Silence.

" I don't know what I would've done without you." He sat on the edge of the bed.

" You would have gotten over it and lead the pack like you're supposed to." I said. The sound of my voice shocked me. I sounded empty, emotionless, heartless.

 He stared at me in shock. " Is that really what you think, Lexa? That I could just move on? Well I can't! Without you I have no reason to be here. Without you I am nothing. When I saw you fall I was come over with so much grief I don't know how I managed to muster up the stength to carry you back. I thought you were dead! I thought that I had just watched you die!" His voice rose. " I couldn't live after that. You know why? Do you know why?"

I sat there and stared, no expression on my face. I stared at his eyes, taking in every detail. Brown lashes, framing sea-green eyes. Eyes that were glistening with moisture, lashes clinging together with tears that haven't completely made there escape. THere was so much emotion trapped in there I had to look away.

" It's because I love you." He said.

I stayed extremely still, but my pulse was beating a mile a minute. I didn't deserve to be loved anymore, and he didn't deserve to be stuck with me.

" Did you hear me, Lexa?" He asked. " I said I love you. I fucking love you for goddess sakes! And you sit there, like a freaking statue, not saying shit."

He grabbed his jacket and stormed out of  the room slamming the door loudly behind him. I flinched at the noise.

I listened to his quick footsteps taking off down the hall and the door downstairs closing.

I broke apart.

I cried.

Cried until I had no tears left, and then I lay there, motionless. Images of Seth laughing, of Brendon's smile, of those brief moments I was happy flashed though my mind.