I can't help but turn my head from his face to afraid of what he might say or do. I really wanted to tell him, but he left. Left me on my own to take care of a baby at 19 and now that we're in are 20's doesn't mean that we're in high school. Not any more, and I thought high school was scary.
"So when did you find out?" he asks looking at are daughter. I sigh.
"When I came home that night I looked for you. I went every where Liam, but you were gone. I felt so alone and I didn't know what to do. Then I felt anger, and I didn't want to talk to you. When Abella turned 3 I decided to leave, I was tired of Nebraska and all of the memories that haunted me there. I had to get out not just for me but for her. So I came here to be closer to Leroy, and Abella would have someone stable in her life," I say braiding Abella's soft hair.
"I just don't get why you didn't try and call me or something," he says hurt clear in his voice.
"I didn't want to see or hear you, to know that you left and didn't want to come back. I felt that you should go after your dreams Liam we were only 19 at the time. I can't hold you back," I whisper to him. He lets out a frustrated sigh.
"Still it just hurts like a bitch," he mutters. I nod. I look at Abella the best thing that has ever happened to me.
"She has your eye," I whisper.
"When I saw her I knew, just from looking into her eyes and her hair she gets from you. Abella is a tiny replica of us combined," he chuckles. I nod.
"She sure is, has your determination too," I smile. He nods.
"I think we should get back together," he finally says after a few minutes of silence. I shake my head and sigh loudly.
"No, I can't go through what you did again. I can't let her get to attached to you and then you pick up and leave again Liam. I just won't, she is just to pure and innocent for that. She deserves the best," I reply looking into those damn blue eyes of his.
"But that is the best thing for her!" he snaps at me. I flinch back from him.
"That's what you think but I know that's not the best Liam," I say shaking my head looking at the ground.
"How do you know? Huh? How the hell do you know if we don't try," he says with anger and hurt in his voice.
"I just don't want that," I mutter.
"Well I do Lani! I want to see my daughter too!" he roars. I bite my lip.
"She doesn't even know you," I whisper and with that I get up and leave. As I drive home all I can think about is his beautiful angelic voice that I love with all my heart. Those big blue eyes that can burn your soul and make you fall at his feet. His heart beat that used to be my comfort place and that made me feel at home. Once I arrive back at the apartment I put Abella into her bed and go and start the dishes that I had left this morning. I finish up and go to my bedroom slipping on a pair of sweats and a tank top. I lift up the tank top and see the stretch marks that were left behind from my pregnancie.That's what you get though from giving birth at only 19 teen years old takes a toll on your body that's for sure. I go to the living room and turn on the T.V and switch it to The Big Bang Theroy, before I know it I've fallen asleep on the couch sleeping soundly until I hear Abella call for me. I get up and run to her room.
"What's wrong baby girl," I coo tears streaking her soft face and hair some what matted.
"I had a bad dweam," she sniffs. A sigh of relief excaping my lips.
"Come sleep with me baby girl," I smile picking her up. We climb into bed and soon we're both asleep. When I wake up the next morning letting Abella sleep peacefully. I go and make some scrambled eggs and hot chocolate just how she likes it. I go and wake her up. Her tiny fists rubbing her eyes as she yawns.
"Good Morning momma," she says sleepily.
"Morning baby girl, let's go eat," I smile she nods and we go to the kitchen after eating she goes and watches some princess movie since she is totally and completely in love with the whole princess happily ever after thing. Abella's blue eyes darting across the screen as she watches Sleeping Beauty. I start to clean the dishes and put the left overs away, once I finish up I change into a pair of shorts and a shirt with flip flops are dog Moose laying sleepily on the couch.
"Abella go get dressed please," I yell.
"Otayyyyy," she sings. I hear the patter of her feet on the wood floor as she runs down the hall to her room. After a few mintues I pull my hair into a pony tail and curl it into perfect ringlits. I walk out to see Abella trying to tie her shoes she almost has it so I'm not going to stop her. Once she gets the bunny through the hole she pulls it tight when she finishes she looks at me with a huge grin on her face.
"Momma I did it!" she yells. I hug her and kiss her on the cheek my big giddy smile never leaving my face as I look at my baby girl.
"Good job sweetie I knew you could do it!" I coo. She claps her hands together and gives Moose a hug who just lazly lifts his head and licks her cheek. I grab Abella's hand and my purse and we go to the car.
"Where are we goes momma?" she asks. I chuckle at her bad grammer since she was only 5.
"We are going to go to the grocery store, then the mall, lunch, and if you behave the whole time we will go to Toys R Us to get a new toy. Ok?" I smile. She nods her head eagerly. The whole time I shop and get things Abella tells her oppinions on what she likes and doesn't like but not once complains. I laugh as she makes a 'ewww face' at the Chinese I had gotten for myself. Instead of complaining though she just grabs her chicken nuggets from McDonalds and dips it in ketchup taking a big bite. After we finish up we walk out to the car Abella looking at the sky intently.
"Well it looks like we are going to go to Toys R Us," I smile as she squeals in excitement.
"Can I gets two toys?" she asks. I think about it for a moment then nod sure why not?
"Yeah," I nod. Her grin gets wider as we enter the parking lot. As we go through out the store she picks out a Rapunzel doll and a stuffed Lady from Lady and the Tramp her favorite dog movie. Once we get home I open up the doll box and she goes and plays with it for an hour or two until it's dinner time. One of our favorites chicken noodle soup with biscuts that have apple butter in the middle, once we finish up our meal I clean the dishes as Abella gets ready for bed.
"Come on Abella it's movie night," I yell. Abella sits on the couch in her Cinderella night gown with Lady in her arms.
"I want to watch Lady and the Tramp," she sings.
"Okay let me go and set up are ice cream and candy bar," I yell. I poor in her favorite candies into a bag and a little ice cream, I grab myself some then start the movie. I snuggle up close to her and watch the movie with this little bundle of joy in my arms. Once the movie finishes up I look to see Abella has fallen asleep I get up and carry her to her bed that has princess sheets and covers. I slip her under the warm blankets and put Lady in her arms. As I'm ready to leave I kiss her on the head and flick off the lights as I walk out of her room. I do the dishes real quick and get into bed with a pair of sweats and an over sized t-shirt that I found on the bottom of the closet.
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Always Been You...Liam (Done but needs to be Editied)
Teen Fiction"Love is a mystery everyday I'm fining out something new," Lani Port Lani and Liam are high school sweethearts both in love. But after a while of thinking about it Liam decides to go after his dream of becoming a football player. Lani finds out that...
