sheik and the american √

ch.6

He gave me a ring, it was really pretty. I could've went with a little less. But no it had to be an actual diamond.

I could've screamed right then and there. But then I'd have to explain why I screamed and I wasn't ready for that.

I remembered I didn't feel well this morning but I didn't think of it anymore after James entered the room.

I barely knew the guy. What if it turned out I didn't like him after all. And we shouldn't have gotten married. And then I would because that's just the type of person I am. But he doesn't even know it.

Great and now I'm talking to myself because I'm slowly going insane. And I just don't know it yet!

Add more to the story I don't even know him! I mean it feels like I should know who he is a little bit more before we jump into things.

Why does he even want to see a girl like me much less be with a girl like me.

And why did I even accept his ring and say I would see him at dinner.

Oh great I have to meet his parents? What if they don't like me. I mean if he just one didn't like me I think I'd be able to handle that.

It's just .... I don't know was every person like this when they get engaged? Or was it just people like me.

I couldn't believe how anyone could marry someone and not feel anything even if it's just something small that they have. At least its better then nothing.

I feel something for James I just can't put my finger on it now and I don't know if I'll ever be able to.

I hope I will figure it out. The sooner the better.

At least I still have my pride and that has to account for something. I just hope I don't ruin myself in the process. That would be bad.

And that can't ever happen. I needed a way to leave my parents and brother. And that way was to leave the country and them all together.

And that is all that truly matters at this point is that I'm gone and I'll be happy. Mostly.

It was about an hour before dinner so I just put my hair up in a tight bun, put on a good looking dress that went a little past my knees and got a good pair of knee high boots.

Then I just surfed through the internet. Not really looking at anything just trying to pass the time by quicker.

I could've said no but I didn't. I knew that what would follow for the rest of the summer,and quite possibly the rest of my life, would be good for me.

Now all I had to do was figure out what I was going to say...

A couple minutes later and I still didn't know what to say. What if they don't like who I am as a person. What if I couldn't measure up to their standards.

What if they didn't even consider me as a decent human being.

Little did I know again that I couldn't possibly have guessed who his parents were and what power they held over Qatar. And maybe possibly the world.

Guess I was going to find out though.

And I wouldn't say I wasn't surprised. I definitely was.