Dont You Want Me? Levi x Reader BOOK 2

Part 4 - Keep Me Sane

You looked down at your papers, you had been staring at them for hours in hope that an idea would come to you about Operation Golden Sun. However, no such miracle happened, you hadn't even realised that the room had become dark with the fading light, and you had completely forgotten to eat.

You stretched, Lex had been gone for a long while, but had made no more progress from when he had been in your room. Gingerly you stood up, throwing your jacket on the bed, slowly stretching your calf muscles in hope they wouldn't cramp. A few internal crunches of your back told you that you really should have been sitting in a better position, when you heard a knock at the door. Tilting your head, wondering who it might be, it was late, not many people visited you at this time of night.

"Come in." You called, taking a hair brush from the cabinet on the far wall and letting the hair fall down past your shoulders from the tie that kept it in place. You heard the door open, and boots step across the wooden boards of your room. With a quick turn of your head, you realised it was Eren, and you smiled to yourself, of course it was Eren. "Missing me were you?" You heard a small chuckle.

"No, but you said you would come and see me. You didn't, so I thought I would come and see you instead." After finally getting the last small knots out of your hair, you placed your brush back on the cabinet and turned to him. You had forgotten that you had said that to him. Shit. With a sheepish smile, you looked to the floor, you felt bad for not remembering to go and see him.

"I'm sorry Eren. I was so wrapped up in the files that I lost track of time." You gave the scattered papers on the bed a glance and realised that he had followed your eyes. "I managed to get these out of Levi's room, witho- well he caught me but it's something at least." Eren's eyes darkened, and closed the gap between the two of you.

"He didn't hurt you did he?" That fire was back in his eyes. How did he know that Levi would have been cold to you, to have got to the point where it could have turned to violence again? Or did he think Levi was always like that? Pretty Jaded. "If I find out that he touched you like he did on the training field I will kill him." You watched him perplexed as he traced his warm fingers over your cheek. "You are far too important to be hurt by him. He has done it one time too many for my liking."

"Eren..." The way he looked at you, scared you. There was something deeper there than you had ever realised before, that fiery passion that you had always put down to his hatred for Levi, but had you just read the whole situation wrong? No, it couldn't be. "No he didn't hurt me. Just shouted at me" You tugged on his hand, that still lingered by your cheek, bringing you some distance from the non-existent space between the pair of you.

"(f/n). I know you don't want to hear this, but someone needs to say it to you. He used you. He got what he wanted and now he's found something which he now thinks is stupidly is better." The tone he said it with was bitter, and obviously harbouring his lack of love for Levi. You turned away from him unable to understand why he was saying this now. You knew from your interactions with Levi and also the way it seemed... he was right, but hearing it hurt so much more.

You felt two hands wrap around your waist from behind, feeling him all around you. What the fuck was happening? What was he doing? This was so not happening!!! "Please listen to me. I know you are hurting, I know you lov-. Well I know you felt deeply for him, but he doesn't love you like...." Eren halted his words. He couldn't really have been saying what you thought he was. This was getting out of control. However, even though your head was a mess and you were close to tears, you couldn't help but shrink into him. He had always been so warm, even from when you were in the infirmary and you felt how warm his hands were, you had loved the warmth.

"Eren. I shouldn't be this close to you. Its not right. I cant do this." You whispered, barely able to think straight. His response was to only hold you tighter and nuzzle into your hair. What could you do in this situation? You knew you shouldn't, but you needed someone just to hold you and tell you everything was going to be okay. So he wasn't doing the latter but the contact was definitely needed. "I just-"

"Shut up and just let me hug you, will you!" Eren responded. He wasn't letting you go, that was evident. You were sure you could feel him inhale deeply as if taking in your scent and you moved to get away, it was becoming far too familiar, and there was a part of you that was beginning to enjoy it. You loved Levi. Even if he had thrown you away like trash, but this wasn't right. You managed to break free of him, not that he was forcing you yet he didn't want to let you go. Looking back at him you couldn't help but feel guilty.

"I cant do this. I love Levi. You mean so much to me, but-" It happened in an instant. He moved to you, his hand gliding to your cheek, fingers curling around the back of your neck, his hand wrapped around your waist and his lips to yours. Your eyes widened. WHAT THE FUCK!? His lips were like molton fire, and the air around you was dense with his desire. The whole room seemed to focus on this moment. You were frozen, like ice against fire. How were you going to explain this one to Levi? Would he even care? You felt yourself melting against his flames, would it be so wrong? YES! NO! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Your mind screamed completely knocked off balance and it was only when the kiss ended that you felt warm tears streak down your cheeks. He had broken you, someone had finally broken down the wall you had put up.

Eren looked at you earnestly, sadness in his eyes. "(f/n) Please, if you wont accept me, let me at least give you the comfort that you need. Let me at least give you the peaceful sleep that you desire, you get so cold at night, I promise I wont try anything." He seemed so gentle, could you really deny him? It was cold up here, and it was dreadfully difficult to sleep without the fire in Levi's room.

Before you had even thought about it, you nodded. Eren stepped away from you and cleared the papers off your bed, sat down and took off his boots and jacket. You were relieved that he didn't take anything else off. You had seen his body previously and recognised that the situation would only get worse if you were left alone to any desires that may come to you in the night. Sheepishly, you sat on the bed next to him feeling stupidly awkward, and took off your own boots. You heard Eren laugh.

"Come on, don't be so scared. We've fallen asleep on the same bed together before." He nudged your shoulder with his own.

"Yeah but you hadn't kissed me before that." You said, your cheeks going pink at the thought of it. It was true, there was no turning back after this. You knew his intentions for sure now, there was no going back to being just platonic friends. You whirled your legs onto the bed and laid on your side, as Eren did the same. Almost wanting to hide behind your pillow.

"Then forget it happened." How could he say that? How could you forget that? He must have noticed the confusion on your face and he laughed. "Okay you cant, but I mean who couldnt?" He raised his eyebrows suggestively. There was something about his playfulness that you had never had with Levi and you were unable to stop yourself from smiling. "Tell me whats going on with the Woman."

You were glad that he had changed the subject, and told him all you had found out, everything that had happened in the hallway and Levi's office. It felt strange recounting it to Eren, what with what you knew now, but he didnt get angry, he was interested for other reasons: to prove that Levi was no longer interested. ".. and that's what we found in the files." You ended with a yawn.

"I think this little lady needs to sleep. Grab the covers, and get some shut-eye . We'll talk about it in the morning, maybe a new day will give us a better perspective." You nodded, blew out the candle by the side of your bed and pulled the covers over you, nestling yourself into his chest as he wrapped his arms around you. His warmth enveloped you, his strong arms wrapped around you tightly and his chin resting on the top of your head. You never thought you would feel so comfortable in another mans arms, but here you were. "Sleep well."

You were dozing, Eren already asleep. Everything was quiet, when you picked up a creak on the floor outside, and you were sure you heart the latch of the door click open, but you were so exhausted you were sure it was just noises of the building. Then a whisper of angered words reached your ears. "Stupid brat."