Dont You Want Me? Levi x Reader BOOK 2

Part 5 - When all is said and done

You sat up with a start. Had you been dreaming? No. The door was definitely open. You felt Eren shift beside you at your sudden movement but he stayed asleep. Without a moments thought, you slipped out from under the covers and quietly rushed to the door and then to the hall outside. You had expected to see nothing, that it was all in your head, only to turn the corner and see Levi his head bowed and his fists clenched,  that was not what you were expecting. You moved closer, the floor cold on your naked feet, and laid a hand on Levi's arm.

He didn't flinch like you were guessing he would have, he merely tilted his head, his eyes locking with yours in an angry yet sad expression. You realised he had clenched his teeth too, he was just a walking time bomb, that much was obvious.

"Levi... I..."

"Say nothing. I am not stupid. I know what's going on here." He said rigidly, barely moving his lips. His eyes moved from yours to glare at the floor. He seemed so reserved, but you got the feeling that you weren't meant to have woken up, but what the hell was he doing watching you whilst you slept anyhow?

"Nothing is going on. Eren was just keeping me warm. Ever since I was thrown out I havent been able to sleep properly." You replied in hushed tones to make sure that you didn't make too much noise and wake others up. He looked up at you again, his cold eyes searching yours, surely he could see that it was true. You suffered with the cold dreadfully and after a moments pause, he pushed himself off the wall. "Not that it matters considering you don't give two flying fucks about me anymore." You added bitterly. It was all well and good explaining everything to him, but what did it truly matter?

"I am not explaining myself to you." He glared at you, mentioning the relationship had annoyed him. He grabbed your chin roughly and drew nearer. "If I find you with him again, there will be hell to pay." He uttered the words as a threat and a promise. There was no doubt in your mind that he meant it, but why? He didn't want you, was he stopping you from from being with anyone else as well or was it just Eren? Not that you wanted to be with anyone else. He pulled you closer, his mouth by your ear and whispered almost in a growl. "You. Are. Mine." He let go then, turned heel and walked away leaving you speechless. What in the world was going on?

You stood there for a few minutes, just standing where he had left you, staring off into the distance, wondering whether you were still dreaming. He had acted so strangely, the Levi you had grown to love would have flipped out if he had seen that. He would have woken everyone up with his shouting yet he had been strangely quiet. The later part was definitely more like him but there was a certain malice there that you had never experienced before, let alone the possessive nature of his words. You were pulled out of your thoughts when you heard giggling and a deep rumble of laughter coming from one of the rooms opposite yours. You raised an eyebrow and titled your head as you tried to gauge who's room it was coming from.

Your question was shortly answered when you heard a door open, filling the hallway with a gentle light from a candle flickering in the room, followed by another deep laugh. Your eyes widened in shock when you saw the two figures appear, and realised it was none other than Lex... and Hanji.  Your open mouth of shock turned to a smile as you watched Hanji whisper something to your companion and give him a kiss on the cheek and slink away to her room. Luckily, they hadn't seen you and he closed the door behind him, chuckling to himself.

Curiosity overwhelmed you, almost causing you to forget what had happened with Levi; this was far too intriguing not to investigate. Quietly you crept to Lex's door and quietly knocked, stifling a giggle. You heard his footsteps coming closer, and watched in anticipation as you saw the door handle turn. 

"Did you forget something?" Lex asked in a voice you had never heard before. He seemed to be suave and somewhat seductive. His eyes met yours and widened in horror, you were not who he was expecting. You saw him turn as bright red as his hair, your eyes trailing to his shirt, which was half done up. "Ko-Kotenok..I.. uh.." He cleared his throat awkwardly. 

"You have to let me in and tell me all about this! You kept this quiet!" You said as you slipped inside his room, Lex was still to astounded to have been caught to stop you and he sighed heavily as he closed the door behind him. Settling yourself in the chair in the corner of the room, you steadied your gaze upon him, waiting for him to explain himself. 

"I.. Hanji.. We were just..." His words faltered as his excuses failed him, and you were beyond the point of stopping yourself from laughing. Huddling your feet underneath yourself to keep them warm, you leaned on your hand and shook your head. 

"Lex! You ol' dog. I didn't know you had it in you! And Hanji none the less! I'm hurt you didn't tell me." You said with a pout. Lex sat on the bed and looked at you woefully, he had obviously meant to keep it a secret, at least for the time being. 

"It is not like that. We were talking, one thing led to another, I never thought she felt that way. It was very out of character for me. If I do such things, I like to do properly, like dinner and walks and-" You interrupted him with a cackle of laughter. 

"Really? Thats so gentlemanly of you! But Lex, most of the scouts will die within six months, that isnt enough time to court, wine and dine! Let alone the fact there is no where to wine and dine here! We arent in the dark ages, we have titans to deal with." The smirk still etched into your features, your voice laced with mirth. 

"You think I do not know that?! You think I do not know that half the people I make friends with will not come home? What if you were still out in field? How could I protect you? How could I protect the ones I love?" You didn't expect that reaction, your jest had fallen on rather sorrowful ears, Lex had taken it to heart, but you couldn't blame him either. With a sad smile you moved from the chair and sat next to him on the bed, now was not the time to make jokes.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that. You don't have to worry, I'm not in the field any more, and Hanji can take care of herself. I've seen her against the titans, you have nothing to fear." You nuzzled your cheek into his arm and looked up at him with big eyes, the light catching the lines of scars along his jaw. "Smile for me big brother, I hate to see you like this." With that he looked down at you and smiled as you had requested, his big hand reaching over to tousle your hair. He made a small movement with his arm, the one you were leaning on, and you moved away, only for him to bring you into a one armed embrace.

"I do not know what Id do without you Kotenok. Now, I have question for you. What are you doing up at this time of night?" The question caught you off guard and all that had happened came flooding back to you. You gave a deep sigh, and filled him in as he sat listening intently. 

"So, Eren is still in your bed? Hmmm and Mr Darcy was watching you." Lex shook his head. "I do not think this bodes well for you, but we shall see. You need to tell Eren to back off, it is not right for him to take advantage while you are heart-sick." You shivered next to him as you nodded your head in agreement. "You are cold? Come. Why don't you settle down with me, I have covers a-plenty and you know I have no intentions for you." You hesitated, this was the first time that Lex had dared to let you sleep in his bed, he was far too gentlemanly for that, but there was no real worry for you to do so. He was your brother, maybe not in blood but in heart and there was nothing so natural as one of Lex's hugs. 

"However, I will tell you some information that I got from Hanji tonight." You both settled down, Lex wrapped an arm around you to keep you warm but maintaining a decent distance away from you. He always managed to do the polite thing, typical Lex. "Erwin had no idea who is with Levi. He did not sanction the mission to go get her either. This is all Levi's doing. It seems Hanji accidentally mentioned it to Erwin, not knowing that he was unaware of our visitor." He nodded at you, looking rather proud of himself. "She also mentioned that Erwin tried to see this woman, but Levi denied him access to her. Strange no?" 

"So you think this really is something to do with our investigation?" You asked sleepily, you were dreadfully interested but you couldn't stop yourself from nodding off to sleep. 

"Yes, I think it is directly involved. We need to speak to Levi tomorrow. We need to sort this out once and for all." You nodded without answering, sleep finally taking you. You heard Lex chuckle. 

"Sleep well Kotenok. Dream of happier days" He kissed you on the forehead and slowly drifted off into his own sleep.