Why Me??

chapter 5:

I already was sitting in the cab, looking outside visualizing the view of cars, buildings, the cloudy sky even that we are in the middle of the summer. The taxi driver just looked at me from the mirror and asked me if I want to hear anything , he was so gentle and nice. I told him I don't mind unless its not noisy and makes me want to jump and take off the radio. I could hear him laughing and I was happy that I actually saw someone who is happy because of me, it been a long time while I heard anybody laughing over anything I said. He told me he would be so glad if I chose a song to play, and I started searching through my music play list and I just glanced "life is worth living" for "Justin Bieber".

While the song started to play after I connected it to the radio using an "Aux"i found in the cab, I started to imagine what is happening in the house, but I got intruppted by the driver asking me about the song and telling me I have a good taste and for the first time he feels like there's a song to inspire others, I looked at him and smiled , he did the same to me. I wanted to talk about it but I just didn't feel like I have the power to say much.

I was wondering about LA and is it really the best descion to make, but I found myself in the airport, I went off and started looking around , seeing people , so much people , I was kind of panicked to leave everything behind me. I started taking off my bags and the drive was so kind , he didn't leave me alone.

I was walking , then I heard somebody running behind me , I could hear his breath from miles, "stop, stop please", I turned away and saw the taxi driver calling me and he has my phone in his hands. I walked to him and thanked him with a big smile on my face. He said that I'm welcome and to enjoy my trip.

I opened my phone, and saw dozens of calls from Laura , I was surprised , so I directly called her back , I waited a bit till she picked up and I could hear her breath like she is breathing so hardly and deeply ."What's wrong? Is everything fine? I could hear her breath but she's not responding and that makes my worry increase even more. I started shouting :"talk now!! You are just playing with my nerves and I'm feeling fucking scared ; so talk , get it!!" Everybody was starring at me but for ones in my life I feel like all their eyes are not there , not starring at me from head to toe , not judging me my ripped jeans and my hoodie , not that I shouted loud enough that everyone heard me , I really didn't care .

Laura started talking finally:"Beka, please don't be worried! ! He gonna be alright "while her sound was shivering, "who will be alright laura??:I asked. "Your dad, your dad was driving while he was completely drunk, and a very bad accident took over ", the tears were running down my cheeks, I was frozen , I felt broken , but I wanted to run , run fast , to help him cause I know he needs me now more than ever.

I wanted to stop a cab but no one stopped, and I was so terrified I could lose my dad, I didn't think about it , I just jumped infront of a car and started begging the driver so he can give me a ride. He looked at me with pitty, bit I didn't care , I'm the one who is about to lose his dad, and that shatters me apart.

I looked at the driver eyes , and told him to go faster. I felt like he want to ask me what's wrong? So, before he asked I just told him, my dad , I'm about to lose him. He was scared I could lose it, but he didn't show, he said to me everything gonna be alright dear , pray to him ; crying will not help you now.

We arrived to the hospital , I ran quickly to the reception to ask about my dad room, all I managed to say, Adam, Adam Brown. She said :"he is still in the emergency room , second floor. I heard her and I felt like I'm about to faint while going upstairs, but I manged to get there, I saw Laura who was running to hug me and she fid hold me tight, she is the only friend I have but she is one of a million. I started crying on her shoulder , she told me , he is tough , he will go throw it. I looked around and saw my mom sitting on the ground, she looked pale, beyond all the problems she is here , I wish he could come now and see her , I went to her so I can relax her but I'm the one who needs relaxation , so I gave her a smooth but a broken hug ,I could feel her tears on my hoodie sinking doen to my skin, I looked at her , I wanted to tell her stuff will be fine , but the doctor just came out and I could see his face down to the ground, he seems so dry , so frightened from our reactions, he looked at my mom's eyes and told her , I'm sorry to be the carrier of this news and before he continued I passed out.

Silent was all I was looking for, I opened my eyes to see my mom's eyes starring at me with worries, sadness, hurt , I wanted to push her, to tell her it's all your fault but I didn't manage, she was already broken , feeling guilty and that's won't ever heals.

She started calling me but I didn't respond , I went off and saw my dad's face covered with a white sheet, and here I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself , Laura came to help me calm but I couldn't , I just lost my rage , I start damaging everything around me, I searched for my mom so I could just blame her for what she did, I entered the room and I saw her down on the ground, while she was bleeding."No mom , I need you wake up , I need you , dont leave me alone , I can't afford to lose you"i yelled .The doctors were running , the whole hospital came and starred at me, I touched her but there was no heart beat, I know she's dead. They took her and tried to remake her heart beat. But, I couldn't lose my parents in the same day, I gave up and while I was going , the nurse shouted ,"her heart , it beated again" , I didn't know what to do to be happy that she is alive or that my dad just died and cry my heart out.

It was hard to me to decide what to do, so I cried , yes a little from joy and a lot from sadness. I looked from the glass, I saw my mom sleeping and I wish my dad was sleeping too. But , he isn't.

After a month, my university started, till now I couldn't go outside and accept what happened , but all what I can do is to thank god , I didn't lose them both...
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