Rising From The Ashes

Chapter One Coming Back to Normal

Author Note
This is my first Everlark book to write so please enjoy and leave comments.Do NOT read if you did not read the series. TEAM EVERLARK :) Sincerely Your Mockingjay, Katniss Mellark

Katniss P.O.V.

It has been a month since I've returned to District 12, or what's left of it. That means it's been a month since the games were stopped, me terminating Coin, Snow dying from him choking on his own blood, and the Capitol falling. Mostly four weeks since I have seen Gale, the person who I thought was my best friend, who moved away to District 2 for a new job and left me without saying goodbye, the same person who took my sweet, precious little duck out of my hands. Prim. Oh how much I miss her, how much I would give to see her sweet and innocent face again. I would give anything in order to have her alive and me in the ground under all that ash, and know that I risked my life and saved hers instead. But not all wishes come true. Not even my dying wish to keep Peeta alive and safe. Oh Peeta, my boy with the bread, how I wish to be in his warm and strong embrace and to have his smooth and comforting lips on mine. I miss him. I love him. I just hope he still loves me after all his hijacking.

I've been sitting on my couch staring at the white blank wall since I've been home, not eating or sleeping. Too afraid to be awaken by a nightmare of my past. Rue being speared in the stomach and me singing her to her death. Me killing the tributes from District 1. The Muttations that had the resemblance of the fallen tributes, full of pure hatred, ready to kill. Cato having Peeta in a headlock on the golden Cornucopia all bloody from the mutts that were chasing us and his last dying words for me to end his misery. The man from District 11 dying from a bullet to the head. Cinna being killed right in front of me before I was thrown back into the arena for the third Quarter Quell. Peeta hitting the force field and his heart stopping. The poisonous fog that burned my skin and was the end of the tribute from District 4, Mags. The chimp muttations surrounding us and ended the life of the girl who sacrificed herself like Mags to save Peeta before the mutts could get to him. The horrible voices and screams being copied by the Jabberjays. The lightning that struck the tree with the wire that was wrapped around my arrow and the force field that surrounded the arena blowing up. Being in District 8 and watching the hospital being caught in the flames of the fire with patients inside it. Being the Mockingjay and face of rebellion. Finnick being ripped to shreds by the lizard mutts underground. Lost children dying. Peeta being hijacked, trying to kill me, calling me a mutt and not loving me. But worst of all, watching my Primrose being blown to bits in front of me over and over again, and not being able to do anything but watch in horror. Even in these nightmares I could still smell the roses and blood that came from the late Coriolanus Snow.

Greasy Sae always comes by three times a day to my house in the Victors' Village to make me something to eat, which means she's wasting her time because I rather not eat anything and die. I have nothing to live for. Well maybe if I don't- My thoughts are interrupted when I hear the door.

"KATNISS WHERE ARE YOU!"yells the person. I didn't know who it is until I smell the liquor make its way to my senses and makes me gag, even though I have nothing in my stomach to throw up. "Katniss where are- Oh there you are Sweetheart," Haymitch says when he sees me on the couch.

"What do you want Haymitch?" I ask with a hoarse voice from not talking or anything.

"What do I want? I want you to stop moping around and live your life."

"Haymitch what's the p-" I begin, but I am interrupted mid-way.

"THERE IS A POINT IN LIVING. AND THAT POINT MIGHT JUST SHOW UP AT ANY SECOND!" With that said he storms out of my house and slams the door.

He may have a point. Oh I just wish I had my Peeta here with me. Maybe I should make something to eat, I'm starving for not eating for an entire month. I get the strength to get up from my spot on the couch and once I regain my balance, I head towards the kitchen where Sae is there to make my breakfast. Once she sees me she's surprised.