What do I do now...

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I missed 3 periods, because of my mini meltdown, but during 4th period, I finally decided to come out. I went to my locker to grab my books, every time I looked at Nathan's locker, I teared up, I felt stupid for even thinking that I had chance with someone like him. I looked my timetable, science, I groaned, I hated science because I just couldn't come up with practical answers for scientific experiments. I entered the classroom and everyone looked up at me, but, the only person who looked at me differently was Nathan.

"Ms Mary, glad that you can join us, please sit down." said Mr Drew.

I wandered off to my seat which happened to be in front of Nathan.

Great, I thought now I have to try not to show any emotions, I asked the person next to me what we were doing, we were doing science reports, just the thing I can't do. I got to work and started to write down as many things as I could possibly think of.

"Brook..." I heard a voice from behind me say.

I knew it was Nathan, I had liked him long enough to know how his voice sounds, I clutched my fist, and tried hard not to cry, I turned around to face him.

"what do you want" I said with a wobbly tone.

"are you ok?, or do you want to talk about it later" he asked.

Talk about it? I thought, how could I possibly talk about it to him, if the problem is him, but, then I thought if I talk about it to him then I may finally get a closure or a honest opinion from him about me.

"yeah.." I replied with a soft tone.

 "ok" he said.

I couldn't concentrate the rest of the period, I just sat there tapping my pen on the desk. When the period finally ended, I went to my locker only to find Nathan there, he was leaning with his back on the locker, as good as he looked, I was still upset , but, I walked to my locker normally.

"Hey..." I heard him say.

"hi" I replied with a soft tone

"So, whats up?" He asked.

I couldn't talk to him here, not here, not where it had happened.

"Can we talk outside.." I said with a sniffle

"sure" he said

Before I could turn to face him, he took my arm and lead to a bench outside, he sat down and sat down after him.

"Brook, do you still like me?" he asked.

Do I still like him?, what?, I thought he already knew.

"yeah, I thought you already knew.." I said.

"I know, but, I thought you got over me in yr 9." he said. 

"no" I replied with a harsh tone.

We remain silent for at least 15 minutes, I finally spoke up.

"So are you and Tiff dating?" I asked, with my head facing the ground.

"Nothing is offical, Brook... I'm really sorry if I hurt in anyway." he said then he looked away

"Its okay" I said with my face still facing the ground

He walked away without saying goodbye, I looked down and my eyes tears up, it really wasn't okay even if I said it was, it wasn't.

I couldn't concentrate all day, when school finally ended, I didn't hesitate to rush out of school. When I went home, I decided that I would try get my mind off the whole Tiff and Nathan situation, by studying. After trying to concentrate for 30 minutes, I gave up, I'm going nowhere. I logged into Skype, hoping that Nathan unfriended me, but, he didn't, because when I logged on, there were 5 messages from him, I clicked on it.

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