Misguided

First Love

Andrew got home and went straight to his room. It had become a routine to go to his room right when he got home. He threw his stuff on the floor. Took off his pants and shirt and jumped on his bed. "Can't believe she said she loved me. I cant do no love bullshit.." He said to himself. He put his phone on the charger and fell asleep.

He woke up the next morning to a ton of missed calls and texts. He already expected them from Heather but they were from the whole group.

From : Jazzy 💁

I can't believe you would just leave Heather like that!

From: Erik 🏈

That's some bullshit man 😒

From: Joe 🏈

Sorry bro.. Jazzy got my phone to text you and she saw the messages . 😤

The last text from Emmy is what really hit him.

From: Emmy 💋

You take her virginity then leave her like she's nothing, that's fucked up Andrew! You're a dick!

He felt sick to his stomach. He ran to the bathroom and threw up. "I gotta fix this.." He picked up his phone and called Heather.

"The fuck do you want?" He heard an angry sassy voice.

"Jazzy let me talk to Heather!"

"Why so you can fuck then leave again?"

"Let me fucking talk to her or Joe will hear about that party!"

"Damn boy, I got you" she handed the phone to Heather.

"What does he want?"

"Hell if I know? But the nigga's gonna keep bugging girl." He heard in the background.

"Hello?" Her voice was cracking from crying so much.

"Can you come over so I can explain, please.."

"Umm.."

"If my explanation isn't good enough then I'll have the whole football team kick my ass"

"Fine.. I'll be there in ten ."

"Thank you.."

He dug out his old dumbbells from his closet and start lifting them. He started doing push ups and crunches to pass time. Heather walked in as he was doing pull ups. His back was facing her. Her eyes gazed at his back muscles. She would've never guess that he was so ripped by his looks. She finally spoke up after admiring his body "I'm here."

"Oh hey!" He turned around.

"What's your explanation?" she demanded, raising her eyebrow.

"Hold on let me put a shirt on"

"No!" He looked at her confused. "Let's get this over with so I can go home" she tried playing it off.

"Alright" he sat on his bed and patted the space next to him. She sat down next to him and crossed her arms, staring him in the eyes.

"So.. The reason I left was because of what you said.."

"What did I say?" She looked puzzled.

"You don't remember?"

"I'm sorry.. I don't remember most of the night. Just the sex."

"You said 'I love you'.."

"What? I did?"

"Yeah.."

"I was drunk and high, why would you believe me?"

"Those three words coming from any girl scare me off.."

"Whys that? Scared of commitment?"

She raised her voice along with her eyebrow.

"No it's not that.."

"Then what is it?!"

Silence filled the room. He was trying hard to hold back any tears.

"I never told anyone but my mom.."

"What?" She got kind of scared.

"My first love.. She was my bestfriend.." His voice started to crack, he took a deep breathe. "She had the brightest smile, the most beautiful deep blue eyes. Long brown hair. The perfect sized lips. A smile that you'd want to listen to for hours. A voice so soothing it's as if she was an angel. Perfect body, fit, curves, bubble butt." He let out a little laugh. "Beautiful skin, she was always in the sun so her tan was unbelievable. Soft skin that was almost perfect aside from her scars.. I didn't think they made her ugly or anything but knowing she did that hurt me.. Her personality was unexplainable. The most happy, outgoing, creative girl I've ever met. No one knew she was broken.."

The room filled with silence again.

"One night it was just me and her. She promised me that everything had gotten better. I told her that I loved her and she said it back. She kissed me and it moved on from there. We both lost our virginity that night. I was in love, deeply in love. We didn't tell anyone because why should we spread our business around? A few weeks passed and I wanted to surprise her. She didn't go to school that day, said she wasn't feeling well. A flu she guessed. I went to the store and bought her some medicine, her favorite junk food, and rented a couple movies."

He started to choke up.

"It's ok you can tell me.." She rubbed his back.

"I knocked and she didn't answer. The door was open so I walked in not thinking anything of it. I went up stairs to her room. 'Lexi I got a surprise for-' I opened the door the find her hanging from the ceiling fan by a rope' I dropped everything and untied the rope. I called the cops and the ambulance. I felt myself die along with when I walked in on her lifeless body.." Tears rolled down his face.

"She left a letter for me, no one else. She said she was sorry that she lied but knowing me I wouldn't have let her do it. She said she loved me and she hopes that one day I find a girl that'll make me as happy as she did. At the end she wrote "take care.. Don't make the mistake I did. I'm sorry babe.. I love you . ❤️" He started crying.

"I'm sorry that I'm afraid to love again.. I never meant to hurt you.." He hugged Heather and she hugged him back.