It all happened one night when Laila Grey decided to go to a party with her friends.
But what happens when she is pulled in the a game of Never Have I Ever.
Will she come out humiliated or will she find herself taking the bull by its horns and facin...
😓Chapter 11- I'm breaking😓 Listen to the song during the chapter you won't regret it I promise❤️
Its been a week since the incident and my brother is always there, the only time I'm free is when I'm at school. I regret what I did but I know in the end it will only make me stronger, at least I hope.
Everyone keeps asking if I'm okay, I say yes, but I'm not.
I'm getting ready to go to school. I put on a black tank top with grey jogging pants and my white Adidas. (Ignore the other stuff in the image.)
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I throw on one of my brothers large sweaters and go downstairs, I walk past my parents in the kitchen saying a quick bye, before heading out the door.
I hop on my bike and I get ready for another day of nasty stares and laughs, it never died down. I guess they don't notice. I've lost most of the extra weight. I hope there happy.
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As I arrive to school I park near the back so no one can touch my bike and start heading to my locker, and it starts. Talking, laughing, rumors, and the bullying. I feel my eyes burn but I reject it, it I'm weak no one will like me.
When I reach my locker I put my things away, as I finish I feel eyes on me. I turn to see Alex, when he see's me I see his eyes soften and I see and emotion drift through his eyes, but he's to far. I don't blame him no one wants to be near me.
I grab my books and walk away slamming my locker. How long can someone really go like this before breaking. I am so close, so close to loosing my hope. Everyone thinks that you can fix everything with doctors and medicine, but can medicine stop the bullying, can it stop the tears, can it make me eat. The answer is NO!! why cant anyone see that. Medicine cant fix half the problems in the world.
It cant fix me. Never.
I keep walking only to be pulled into an empty class room. Alex.
Tears well up in my eyes.
"Hey are you okay?" Alex asked me worriedly.
"You know what, NO. I'm not okay but I keep waiting for someone to figure it out. Just because I have a wealthy family and a cool brother and I wear a smile doesn't mean its real. I'm breaking, but that's not what matters because that's all anyone wants. They want perfect, and I cant be perfect." I cry my throat becoming dry. "I'm slowly, very slowly dying all over again but no one can see." I scream. "You left, my parents are never home, the only reason my brother is around is because he thinks I'm going to kill myself, my friends are god knows where and then there's me." I say the last part quietly. "Where am I?" I finish.
Alex is looking at, me shocked. He starts shacking his head repetitively. "Listen to me, you are right here." He says pointing to my heart. "Remember what I told you princess, You are strong and that will never change." He says.
"But cant you see Alex, I'm not strong. I have just about broken, I am about this close." I said making a small space with my fingers. "Once that is gone Alex so am I and I cant go through this again. It has been almost two weeks." I say as more tears fall down my face. "Two weeks since I've talked to anyone except my family even that was rare, Two weeks since I've seen you, Two weeks since I have been truly happy, Two weeks since." I say loudly taking a big breath. "Two- Two weeks since I have eaten anything." I whisper.
"Laila I need to tell you something and please don't hate me because I promise I only did this for you." He says with a single tear dropping. "Laila, Jaclyn knows." I look at him questioningly. "She knows everything about your anorexia, and how much it breaks you and that it is the only thing that can break you." This time he took a deep breath. "She said that if I didn't stay away from you that she would tell the whole school." He looked me in the eyes as I shook my head. "I couldn't do that to you, I-I care to much about you." I shake my head more tears falling.
I turn around and run, I run until I see her. Jaclyn.
When I reach her I grab her shoulder and turned her around.
When she see's me she laughs. "Oh what happened this time you ugly slut." She said evilly.
"How could you, you BITCH." I scream in the middle of the hall. If no one was watching before they sure are now.
"What are you talking about, are you on drugs." She says laughing.
"How weak are you that you have to use my disease against me. Do you think I wanted to be that way. Do you know what it is like to always feel like you are not good enough. To never fit in. To never be perfect enough." I say crying. "Its not your secret its mine. So you want to know what you have no secret against me anymore because I will not allow you to break me." I laugh while crying.
"What are you gonna do tell you friends? Where are they by the way?" She laughs.
Shaking my head I grab a chair from the side of the hall and stand on it. I look down at her and feel a tear drop I shake my head. I look up to see everyone staring at me. "When I was in grade nine, I was diagnosed with Anorexia. You see when people hear that they think that you have a choice, but you don't. I tried and I tried so hard until I gave up. It was like a power to me, I finally had power over something. I had the power of making my self smaller and what I thought was prettier. But the whole time I thought I was controlling it, It was controlling me. One day I was on a run when I passed out." I take a deep breath looking at the shocked faces. "I almost died, I took a lot of time to recover, but I won. I beat my Anorexia. I survived. I have been given some pretty amazing words from an amazing guy he once told me that 'I am strong and that will never change'." I look up to see Alex smiling, another tear dropping. "I never really understood what that meant until now. That part of my life wasn't a set back it was the start to my new stronger life that only keeps getting stronger. I don't want any one to pity me, or act sorry, or treat me different, But that was my secret, are you happy Jaclyn." I say smiling with my last tear.
She yawns. "Wow thanks for the sob story, but if i really wanted one I would have just went and watched greys anatomy." She says laughing, no one else laughs. That is when I broke.
I punched her in the side of the face before I pushed her to the ground. I punched her two more times before moving to her ear. "Leave me alone, better yet stop bullying everyone. If you ever bother me and Alex again, or say anything about my Disease I will not hesitate to do this again, Because quite frankly I cant take it anymore." I look at her and she nods fear in her glistening eyes.
I get up and start to walk away when I see Alex standing at the end of the hall with a big smile on his face. I freeze for a minute before I run up to him and jump in his arms and cry.
"I missed you, Princess." He whispers into my ear.
"I missed you too, Babe." I say as I look at him. I smiled but then my eyes drift to his smiling lips.
Then he kisses me. I missed his lips so much.
Right in this moment I am so happy, I hope that this doesn't change for a long time.
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