Hi everyone! Thank you all so much for reading my books!!! I know I haven't wrote anything in a long time and I was going to but I been having some rough times I been going through. Hopefully things will get better in time. Also you can finally see my face. Any surprise? lol. I just haven't been myself and it been hard to writing some things,...I can't believe I'm saying this but...I need to stop living in the past and start living in the present. When it comes to certain thing it can be hard to let go but I has to be done. Yeah life can get in the way but we are still battling even tho we feel like we can't go on. But it's good to take a break. Do something you enjoy that you haven't done in a long time that brought you happyness. The thing that bring me happyness is I love to swing. It was a actually a stress reliver and to calm me down. I would always go out and swing and think to myself and wonder what things would be looking at the clouds and see what shapes my mind would make them look like. I had my kid swing set but that was getting old and run down. When that was gone I couldn't do much and I didn't go out side anymore. I was more being at home in my room eather sleeping or wondering what I will do with my life. I never thought I would live this long to see my life like this. When I was younger I would get sick alot and a few times I thought my sickness would have killed me. But every time I close my eyes I walked up the next morning awake and alive. But in the back of my minds since I was 5 is that I am going to die Young and not make much of my life because it would be short lived. And now I'm alot older and 18. It's hard to get use to not going to school and getting a job Briggs me anxiety because in school I was tough to be the best or play dumb and get yelled at. I was smart to a degree but I was made up to having to do my best and if I fail it wouldn't be an option. That's one of things that really knocked me down. When I was in 8th grade I would starve myself to finish my homework so I could just get into a new shool that would be better for me and I would have a skill. But really I was running away from Rockland school. I got bullied and I'm use to brushing them off but when I moved it changed everything. I was no longer in my comfort zone. I wanted to go this new school because I wouldn't get bullied and to run away from someone I had a crush on. I screwed it up and I just didn't want people to bully me more about so I went to a good school in Hanover! It was good a first but things change and you get to know the inner works of the place. I feel really bad for the firends I made to be going to he school. It's becoming a mess. Now of times I'm starting to get a bit better but I might have to go some new meds because it's not getting better I'm starting to get a bit worse than what I was before. I am hoping that after some time things will get better. But if I don't go on the meds I can deal with it. I would just have to learn how to deal with it. Also I have ADHD and that takes time to deal with and to control and to figure out how you can go with you life. I been able to Handel it but I'm still working at it. I wish all to do well and keep on going. You can do it and I believe in you! Thank you to all my firends I made here on wattpad!! You all have written some great books keep up the good work! Also I'm sorry that I jump from topic to topic. Till next time my firends.
