His mind is set to the ability to be great. Greatness was never my own. I could see how much pressure and stress in his eyes. He never really told me how he truly feels. In the sense of his ability to show his true emotion. Sometimes, i sit and think of why i was given this person, when only i knew he deserved more. I never really thought about it until now. I feel the warmness that fills up the room when he walks in. I laugh at his cute, but corny jokes. The ones that draw you in and don't let you back out. Do you ever sit and ponder what he is dreaming about, what he is thinking about? I do this so often. It makes you scared; you fear that what he wants in life isn't you. more like someone else. I forgot the feeling of real thought. I panic to not say something stupid, nor something you'll regret. Having parents who don't try to be the biggest part in your life. They fade as much as every relationship you've had. My past has a big part of my future, sadly. If he could only see the real pain you feel. What really comes to mind when your around him. What really sets everything in motion. I laugh at that people still today can't look at each other and realize this person was there, this person i was in a relationship with, this person i called my best friend, the person you once said," i love you" to. He could change that. He's very straight forward. He never beat around the bush. He had more and more everyday. He knew; he knew that he would lose feelings for me. I refused to see it. Admitting to the fact, you just don't want him to leave. Afraid of not feeling his warmth when he was in the same room. You fear the regret of not doing something correctly. I could never move on. Him giving me that second chance in life. He is the reason i get up in the morning and smile in the mirror. The reason you dance to music and sing into a hair brush late at night, before bed. He'll see it one day. Maybe not today; maybe not tomorrow, but he will. He most certainly will. I couldn't understand his way of thinking. He just thought of what i could only allow him to see. Secretly, he knew more.
