Understanding his way of showing no trust. I can feel him slipping through my fingers and slowly fade. I keep trying to reach out , but i'm afraid that he won't grab my hand. I feel as if i was put in a lost in found bucket. No one wanting me. I'm lost in a cycle of depression, trying to gasp for air, But that air is slowly getting taken away from me. I could never lose this man. The way his voice sounds when he talks to me. The way he smiles at me. I couldn't bare to lose anymore. Feeling the end has lost as much as me. Like god tried, but gave out. I'm not worth as much as he is. He is everything to me, but also to everyone else. No one would even notice if i was still there. Begging on my knees to just keep him. I'm tired of feeling that beating i use to get. Trying to stop the bleeding in my mind. The endless cycle of beatings over and over again. Just stop! please! i wanna feel him. I wanna touch his soft skin and feel the warmth of his body next to mine. I wanna kiss his lips and feel the soft pillow of his hands wrapped around my waste.
