I'm trying to break that connection now. I can't stand to look at him anymore. I'm pushing my self to not speak to him. Not look at him. God! Why is this so hard to let go?? I love him, but I love him enough to just set him free. Instant moment of wanting to drink. I wanna run away and think of why I can't hold myself together. I'm unfit for reality. Let's just face it! I can't keep wanting someone that I just can't have anymore. Ugh! I feel my fist go through the wall a little. Oops! Oh well who cares. I'm fucked without him. I got this, well not really but bare with me people. I'm only human.
What the fuck is wrong with me. I just can't get a grip anymore. Everything I had is falling through my hands like ashes. Now let's not be mistaken here people, if you love someone and still do more than they love you; does that mean you should fight for it or should I set him free in the since of he's not really the one, I just think he is?
