Like that makes me frustrated. Let's just say this boy still might have feelings for me. I wanna just know if he is willing to just let me cry out all I have left in me. People let's just say I'm not in a good spot right now. My mom is dying. My brother wants to kill himself, like fuck god give me a break. I wanna fucking punch everything. I can't hold back in anything anymore. I'm straight up done. Fuck everything, fuck the future, fuck the past, fuck the present. Like fuck the ones who made me feel like nothing. All I'm asking is to have this kid in my life and for these people to be happy; I'm watching it go down the drain. How could I do this. To myself and to everyone.
