Somebody Else's Fairytale

Eleven

I woke up with a stem of rose and a note beside my pillow. I can’t help but smile. Ang thoughtful naman. I sat up, lay my back on the headboard and reached for the note.

Babe,

   I didn’t bother to wake you up for lunch. My conscience can’t take it to disturb a sleeping angel :). There’s food in the kitchen. I’ll just be out for a while, be back later.

                                                                                   Iago.

I got off my bed without removing that smile on my face and proceed to the bathroom to fix myself. After doing my rituals, I went to the kitchen and saw a plate of rice, eggs and bacon with mixed veggies on the side tapos may smiley faced muffin pa =D I took the plate and placed it in the microwave ((:

While the food was heating up, I can’t help but wonder. Ang swerte swerte ni Kara noh? Two amazing guys love her to distraction, ang sarap kasi magmahal ni Iago. kung si Red noon super sweet, super effort at almost perfect siya, si Iago pa kaya na lamang ng limang paligo kay Red. Masaklap lang na he is still in love with someone na hindi na siya mahal.

Eh ako? What am I in this picture?

Haay, tama na nga. Ang importante ako ang nakakatikim ng pagmamahal ni Iago ngayon, kahit pansamantala :D I’ll just cherish the memories of this scheme. At least naranasan ko mahalin ng isang matinong lalake kahit kunyare lang.  =))

Pagkatapos ko kumain I noticed that it’s already past 4 in the afternoon, so I decided to go out and walk on the beach for a while and perhaps watch the sunset.

I’m just wearing a plain tank top and shorts so I grabbed my jacket and put on my slippers then went off. I was glad not to see 'the' couple at the lobby. (:

Paglabas ko napansin ko na mejo maraming tao, majority are couples. Siguro kasi nagaabang din sila ng sunset and yung families na may kasamang kids nagpapahinga na. Naglakad lakad lang ako palayo dun sa mejo crowded place until nakarating ako dun sa may mga cottages.

I found a perfect spot near a big rock, yung pwedeng upuan, tapos nandun lang siya sa paanan ng shore na mejo inaabot lang ng tubig. I sat near the big rock and let the waves reach my feet.

After a few minutes nagulat ako kasi biglang may kumalabit sa'kin

“Hey.”

“Hey too.” kahit hindi ako lumingon alam ko na kung sino ((:

“Thanks for the rose. And the lunch too.” sabi ko tapos umupo si Iago sa tabi ko.

“Pano mo pala nalaman na nandito ako?” tanong ko sa kanya maya maya, ang awkward kasi pag sobrang tahimik diba?

“Sabi na nga ba eh, hindi mo nga ako napansin kanina. Pabalik na sana ako nung makita kita sa lobby, tinawag pa nga kita kaya lang di ka lumingon kaya sinundan na lang kita dito.”

“Ahh okay. Sorry.”

HANUBAYAN >.< Why can’t I say anything? Or even open a topic? Why oh why? I wanna talk to him but I don’t know what to say or even start a conversation. ARGH! Where did my humor go? Tss! Ganito ba talaga ang epekto ng presence niya? Parang force field. Haha

“You’re unbelievably quiet. May I ask why?” he asked afterwards. Hindi na siguro niya natiis ang katahimikan.

“Sorry, It’s just that….I don’t know what to say.” I said, while playing the sand with my hands.

“You’re thinking about him.” I know it’s not a question. It’s a statement and he sounds so sure about it.

“No.” kasi gusto ko sumagot kahit di naman tinanong. Defensive eh.

Nagulat ako dahil bigla siyang tumawa 0.o “Is it funny if I don’t think about him?”

“You won’t say No of you’re not thinking about him at all. Defense mechanism! I said him, I didn’t mention any name, So why would you answer NO if you’re not thinking about someone?”

AWW. Nadale ako dun >.< Oo nga noh? Because a person won’t say 'I DON’T CARE' if he doesn’t really care. Aww!

Okay. I’m guilty. I do think about him, but not the way you think I do. Whaaat! Ang LABO. Huhu

“It’s okay. I understand.” he sighed, as if ang laki laki ng problema niya, eh in fact ako tong dapat may problemahin di ba? >.<

“Do you still love him?” napatingin ako sa kanya bigla. Why does he sounds so…hurt? I don’t know. But us girls have that way to sense something right? We’re not DENSE

“Who?” I tried to pretend I have no idea who he's talking about. I want to lighten up the conversation. :P

“Him.”

“Can you name him?”

“Red.” Shocks. Serious mode si Kuya

“Oh, you really wanna know the answer?” Because I’m not sure what to say. Ang gulo ko! Sorry!

“Okay, nevermind.”

Back to silence. I’m really really confused right now. I want to talk but I don’t know what to say. I don’t want to think what to say but I can’t help thinking about him. I want to.... UGH! This feeling is complete bullsh.t.

I’m currently complete BLANK. As in…do I even make sense? Oh God. I just can’t function normal.

I was still wondering about my senseless thoughts when he suddenly said something.

“You’ve changed a lot” Biglang sabi niya. I turned to him then chuckled. Yeah.

“What was the old Happy like?” tanong ko na lang sa kanya.

“The Happy I used to know suits her name perfectly. She smiles with her eyes, she doesn’t know the word sad or hate. She has this magic to make things okay. She’s childish and crazy. She’s bubbly and goofy. The Happy I used to know doesn’t take life too seriously." tumigil siya at tumingin sa'kin

"You were the Happy I loved.”

That did it. Parang piniga ng sobra yung puso ko. I can already feel my tears starting to fall, my throat aches so bad I can’t say a word without bursting. But gladly I did, I tried to explain my side. I wiped my tears and took the remaining one back. I swallowed hard and said;

“Well, that Happy realized she’s through with positive thinking. That Happy realized she needs to stand up against life. That Happy realized she should be tough."

That Happy realized she needs to grow up because life did hit her hard.

I didn’t realize that my tears betrayed me and started to fall on their own, then Iago started to wrap his arms around me; I didn’t protest because I know it’s what I needed. A hug.

I cried hard. I cried my heart out. I let go of every sh.t inside me.

I have never cried like this since I was 6. I never let anyone hug me this tight since god knows when.

I never let anyone see how wasted I am inside since now.

Iago never said a word, he just hug me tight not caring even I soak his shirt with my tears. Then afterwards, when I was already catching my breath, He held my chin and lift my face up and said;

“Happy, You don’t deserve this. Happiness was never destined to be taken for granted.”

His next move was like a dose of heroine.

He kissed me, and for the longest time, I felt like the old Happy again.

I felt exactly what was written on my favorite novel.

And the next thing I did was kiss him back.

I surrendered my sword and let go of my shield. This is Iago after all.